i'm alive

the last leg . . (almost)...

2009-10-25T09:57:00.003+08:00

What a semester. It has been a busy & tiring one. Though I have only 4 modules, there's still the FYP to battle with, and that is a constant source of my worries. When I first chose my topic for FYP, I did not expect much programming coming my way. Little did I know that I was wrong on this part; it is so heavy on programming, that sometimes I jus feel so overwhelmed. Not by the programming (yet..), but by what is coming my way. Other than programming the robot to behave at my bidding, I'l also have to learn to program using simulation softwares, skills which is somehow, one way or another, is out of my league. Have borrowed 2 books on how to use Microsoft Robotics Developer Studio, hopefully I'l be able to achieve a decent result on this aspect.

The 2 most enjoyable modules I'm taking this semester would probably be Einstein's Universe and Quantum Weirdness, and Malay I. Though much of the content in Einstein's Universe leaves me in a dazed state and a state of "huh??", some parts of it really does gets us thinking. Especially parts in Quantum Physics, where in the past, I just absorbed and learnt what was taught to us. Now, suddenly, most of it made more sense, though some didnt. But those that didnt make sense to me now, I learnt to see it in another perspective, and to comprehend why things were how they were. And writing the term paper for this module proved to be a challenge, albeit fun. It was fun discussing with my dear partner (:P) what to write, and laughing at each other's ideas (though most of the time, it was my idea that was laughed at -- bleahhh) . But now that we have a rough draft of ideas, I feel safer.

Malay I was another modules I thoroughly enjoyed. Because I made new friends with whom I could banter with, and also of a very fun tutor. This tutor particularly stands out in my list of "good tutors" (my list doesnt have many people on the list actually.). He teaches with passion, lots of it. Though he needs to cover much content in each tutorial class, he injects fun & laughter into the class lessons. He is meticulous and makes sure that each and everyone in the class has the chance to participate and learn. And he does all the small things to ensure that what we needed, he catered for. Initially, when I first attended his lessons, I was a little terrified of him, worried that he might pick me out to answer his questions in Bahasa Melayu and making a fool of myself. But after that first week of lessons, I realised that my fears were unfounded. Now, I am considering taking Malay II, but most likely I'l try to find out if he will be teaching that module too. And another side point, I met one fellow Regular who is in the same vocation as me, and another Regular-to-be with whom one day I could very well be working alongside with.

The other 2 modules, one on materials, and the other on vehicle dynamics, well, being engineering modules, what more can I say? I need to put in more effort for both these modules, since the continual assessments are not alot, and also, teaching and learning was simply one-way, unlike the teaching methods of Malay I.

I attended the Kent Ridge Ministerial Forum (KRMF) on monday, 19 Oct 09. I got to see MM Lee Kwan Yew in person, for the first time. It was an experience which I have hoped for for a long time, and I finally got to see him in person. Not upclose though, he was probably at least 50m away from me on stage, but still, I was glad to have gone. I have listened to much of his words and speeches on television, so some of the insights he presented on monday were not new. However, hearing them words from the Lion's mouth is just different. Haha. And yes, I am impressed, from the way he speaks, what he says. Here is the man who built Singapore and had an important role in shaping Singapore the way She is now. If only I'd get a chance to shake his hand. And one of his sentences that night probably stayed deep in me (and perhaps with Dear too), that he made sure he did the best he could for whatever he set out to do, if not, dont do it at all. Yeah, many people probably said this and I've heard it many times. But again, hearing it from The Man, maybe its time I put serious thought to action, and do my best for my studies, and my career in the future.

This is now my final year of studies, my second-last semester in NUS. Going back to work in the Armed Forces for good doesnt seem so far now. And actually, lame as it might sound to some people out there, I am actually looking forward to going back to work, to get onto the next stage of my life.

Week 10 has come to an end. It's time to pull up my socks -- Quantum socks or not -- and to get mugging, before the deadlines and exams really start to come close.

Jiayous! =)

Back on the air . . .

2009-07-25T22:05:00.003+08:00

I've not touched my blog in ages now.. the last time was in May, now, its' already stepping into the last week of July 2009. How time flies.. fast. In the blink of an eye, the holidays are over, soon. School starts again on 11 August, and that also signifies the beginning of my last year in NUS. I don't know whether to be happy or not.. Happy, cos I'd be rid of studying soon. Sad? well, I dunno.. cos work will then commence? Not that I would hate working. I dont mind working to earn my keep. haha.. In fact, I'm kinda looking forward to commencing work and settle down with my life. :) But first, i'll have to overcome my FYP first. haha. I was quite disappointed in not being able to get the FYP which I really really really wanted. Performance and evaluation of an electric vehicle. I had all my plans and goals all ready already. BUT, the department had to "follow their policy", ie. the better CAP gets the project. Sigh. And ironically, I am specialising in Automotive Engineering, but my FYP has absolutely nothing to do with AE! None at all. Though what was told to me was that all ME topics have something to do with AE. Well, teachnically yes and no. Yes, cos sensors still hav a part to play in automotive, definitely. But no, well, as the term "automotive" suggests, something to do with automobiles, vehicles etc etc. But i'll still graduate with a certificate to show that i'm graduating with a certificate in Automotive Engineering. haha.

Well, no point harping on that now. Anyways, i had finally confirmed the allocation of my FYP on wed, after an extra week of worrying and thinking and sifting thru the list of "rejects". Well, not to make it sound so bad. They're projects that were not taken by anyone during the first round of allocations 1wk ago. So, here's what my project will be about:

Coverage of urban areas using cooperative Unmanned Ground Vehicles (UGVs)

The student will design and build mini mobile sensors for mission effectiveness studies on
the use of cooperative UGVs for covering a given urban area in field security
operations. Simulation studies will be performed and validated by actual hardware
experiments. UGV related projects may be viewed at http://dynlab.mpe.nus.edu.sg/mpelsb/COSY/index.html.

Sensors, not exactly a field in which i'm super expert in. But still, I'll do my best, and hopefully get a good grade and a good takeaway in this final year!! =)

Cheerios :)

next chapter: holidays (again) . . .

2009-05-06T20:11:00.006+08:00

Define: Freedom ---- the condition of being free; the power to act or speak or think without externally imposed restraints.

This is one of the definitions which Google gave me.

hello everybody! it's the month of May already! i havent been updating my blog for more than a month.. partly because I was lazy to update, but mainly because I had so little time. There was just so much to do, especially projects. This had been a totally crazy semester. Though I only had 3 exam papers, there was so much other things to do. Especially design project. I must say that the project brought me lots of experiences. Good ones, and bad ones too. I had fun machining and cutting wood and assembling our group's prototype. I had fun getting myself dirty with grime and wood chips and Alu grains. But 2ppl sure did drove me up the wall many many times. And I had to bite back my words and keep from lashing out at them. Repeated loud yawns when people are working sure drive me nuts. And the best part: Sam made a direct comment before, but the perpretrator did not catch it. Or perhaps he didnt bother to.

Here's a picture of our prototype (disassembled version) :

and here's the video.. haha :)

and i'm proud to say that it can withstand 300kg without failure!! =D wahaha..

My exams ended on monday, and i'l be going back to SAF for vacation attachment soooooon.. I tried finding internships for this hols, but the companies I'd emailed didnt reply. And I wasnt successful in NUS' balloting for the internship companies, so hence, back to SAF. Kinda looking fwd to meeting with the rest of the VAs and gang again, and enjoy our hols and times together! :) and of course, have a good breakkk! Before my FYP starts!! =x

and tomorrow is a special day for my dear gal :)

Happy 21st Birthday!!! =)

蒲公英

2009-03-29T22:02:00.001+08:00

old song which i still remember and love till now :)

蒲公英. From the TV show 阳光列车 (The Morning Express) . Long long long ago..

More than 10years definitely! haha

2009-03-29T20:30:00.005+08:00

gotta start studying for a 2nd quiz on wednesday.. sighs.
loads and loads of work..

and i wish i had an electronic keyboard which i can just play and connect to my laptop to compose my 60sec mdi!!! haha

*tries rubbing Aladdin's lamp* :D

I dislike reckless drivers. Drivers who dun care about others' safety on the roads. Drivers who change lanes discriminately, who dont bother to signal or pehaps check their blind spots. And taxis who tailgate and highbeam me despite there being soo many cars on the roads on a busy peak period, and cars tailgating me even though i'm already above the limit of 80 in CTE! sheesh.. well, perhaps they were just drafting, using me to break the wind resistance so that they can save petrol by reducing the resistance against them.. haha

random . . .

2009-02-24T20:06:00.002+08:00

blog blog . . pokes pokes . . .

gonna be an early, longg day tomorrow . . .

:)

quarter of a century old . . .

2009-02-22T20:49:00.004+08:00

Yupp, im a quarter of century old now already.. haha. 25yrs old. I'm so privileged to be able to say tat! hahaha. It feels like not so long ago when I celebrated my 24th birthday last year, and now another year has passed by. In the past when I was still in school uniform (ie. Primary, Secondary and JC), my birthdays always fell just before the term1 exams, so needless to say, I wouldnt have been able to celebrate much. Now, it falls just before (or during) the mid term break, so at least I have time for a breather and really enjoy it! :) haha.

Havent been touching my blog for quite some time.
School has been crazy -- Lots and lots of work and stuffs to catch up on.

I've been the most consistent for Science of Music, mainly because I have my interest in it :) There are things that are music-ly, but there are also stuffs that are new to me, and provide an alternative, more technical aspect of music to me. The prof tends to waste time at times. He can start the lecture proper like 40mins into the lecture slot. Before that, either long recaps are done, or admin stuffs covered. But still, going for that lecture is a relief because it is more relaxing and simpler to understand, instead of lectures which feel like I need a code-book to decipher unknown, seemingly coded content.

Monday nights lectures are tiring, but more interesting. Not because of the presence of extraordinary incentives, but because the content taught are practical stuffs, and applicable to real life and happenings. At least I know about cars abit more than I did before. And yes, F1 can actually be quite interesting! As in, the engineering technical aspect of F1, other than the racing part. Hehs :P

And I must say, I hate my Materials lecturer!
1) He sucks at teaching.
2) He owes us tutorial solutions. haha.
Well, the IVLE link to his module is not even open up till now! I wonder when that link will ever be open and be filled with useful stuffs (if it ever will.).

Tuesday nights are interesting too. Reporting statistics in media is an interesting module. And having a lively humorous and practical lecturer kind of makes things more interesting and easier to understand too. (btw, he appeared in yesterday night's Sin Min Ri Bao.) I hope I can score well for that module and do some winching up for my overall cap. sigh.

For my design module, I've been going to the workshop at least twice to three times a week, but usually, only a small portion of things get done because we are able to use only one machine! So if things have to be done using the CNC machine, all 5 or 6 of us can only crowd around the machine while probably 2 of us can really do something at any one point of time. Of course, if there's other more 'physical' things to be done, for eg. hack-sawing the Aluminium plates, then more of us can be kept occupied. It is kind of fun actually, working with stuffs hands-on in the workshop, but it can only be fun if you're really working on things, not waiting. I'm still trying to find the chance to learn how to program with the machine to make machining life easier. haha. Oh yes, Jin Yuan (not sure if his name is spelt correctly) has been extremely helpful too, having offerred to teach us how to do the programming, after seeing us so desperately working at the CNC machine, bit by bit, sweating everything out the tough way.

And something I must say, (no advantages to me for a little advertisement) my team is really really lucky to have met with extremely helpful and kind industrial people.

1) SATS have been patient and supportive as we generated, and subsequently, developed our ideas, concepts and designs.

2) Stanley has been providing continuous help and support for us as well.

3) Our following suppliers were also extremely kind and helpful, going the extra mile to provide us more information and suggestions for what we can use:
- Castor and Wheel Singapore [http://www.castorwheel.com.sg/],
- Bansbach (in Singapore) [http://www.bansbach-asia.net/],
- Superfix [http://www.superfix.com.sg/].
- We also have another 2 helpful companies (Rollers and Fabrication), have yet to get their company details from the guys.

It'l be hard for me to forget the time when Sam and I first went down to Castor and Wheel Singapore at Kaki Bukit, and until he gave us his name card, we didnt have a hoot that he was the GM, and we still thought that he was simply just another employee. He was wearing the same uniform as everyone else, and his desk was the same size with similar equipment to other staff, and placed in the common area of the office. And Sam also related to me that our rollers supplier was also super kind and also gave us recommendations of companies which can possibly help us more in future, plus also gave us one long roll of rubber, free, after knowing that our budget has nearly been reached and we wont have enough money to buy any more stuffs.

Haha. Well, Mid-semester break is now here. But I dont think I have much time to slack. There's too little time for too many things. I have 3 quizzes on the week 9 -13 Mar. Plus I shld try to accomplish more stuffs for machining this week too. Well, no point sighing. Can only pressed on. haha..

Looking forward to a week's break :) [with hopefully time to catch up on studies].
Thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday yesterday :)

And Thanks Dear :) for everything =)

2009

2009-01-07T08:45:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone :)
A belated farewell to yr 2008. haha.. yeah, belated. cos its now 7 Jan 09 already..

2008 gave me many experiences.
It also brought some new frens into my life, [and a special one of course :) ]
It was a year in which there were ups and downs. But I overcame the downs in the end.
I learnt many things about myself,
some things which were seen clearer by my frens than by myself.

This Dec, i didnt return for VA (Vacation Attachment -- with SAF) , hence finally having sometime for myself and for a break. I didnt exactly reali plan not to return for VA, because initially, I thought that there was going to be attachment with the company that I was doing my design project with. And after that didnt materialise, my group also had plans to return to NUS to work in the workshops and start manufacturing stuffs, or at least, practise on some skills and refine them. But that didnt materialise either. Not because we didnt try to arrange any slots, but because one of the technician said that they did not have the resources to help with our trainings, and when school starts, we would have an allocated time to do things. So there. But I still found sometime to do a leeeetle bit of catching up with the guys when I returned to camp. It was great seeing Raynor and Perry again. And spending sometime at the Fmn anniversary dinner at Ritz Carlton catching up with Eugene Goh, Daniel, Junjie, KK, Jason, Sanjev, and also meeting Martin. Though I paid $105 for the dinner cos I was an 'invited guest', I better-utilised the time there. haha.. The program was great though, the Emcee was great in hyping up the mood, and some of the performances were simply hilarous.

A few pics taken nearer the end of the year :)

29 Dec 08 @ Taka macs with Edwin, Junxian, Benny and Pdus (the photographer)

23 Dec 08 @ Jasmine Loo's 21st Birthday

Pdus is now back in NZ. Benny's started work after graduating in Dec. Edwin's probably back to sch too. Junxian is also working already. haha. And me? I'm going to back to school soooon too. 12 Jan 09. Back to another semester in NUS.

My new year resolutions? haha. Study hard, Play Hard. (Probably the former -- Study hard -- would be more important eh? ) heh.

Back to bidding for modules..

locked in a cage

2008-12-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

Imagine, a bird, with its wings clipped, and subquently tied together, unable to make its own decisions and choices, big or small..... A bird, yearning to fly out, and make its way around, happily, experiencing some freedom. The taste of doing things he wanna do. Of really having a breakk from work for once, away from work, from school, and just relaxxxxxx for once. But no. Whatever I do, Im always wrong. Whatever choice i make, its always not a good one, a wrong one.

arghhhh.

2008-12-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

Feeling quite disappointed now, after watching Singapore Vs Vietnam on TV.. I felt that Singapore deserved to win today, after seeing the way our Lions were playing tonight at the National Stadium. But, sighh. We didnt.. Anyways, I still think that our Singapore team played well tonite and gave Vietnam a hard time. :) Cheers :)

Been a rather 'stoning' sunday.. Going back to camp tmr to settle some admin stuffs.

And Yeah, Christmas is coming.. Merry Christmas everyone :)

U light up my life :))

exams aftermath . .

2008-12-16T20:18:00.003+08:00

haha, cant think of any title.. my brain doesnt function during the hols. hehe
well, life after exams are kinda nice.. (duh!) Just relaxing around, and spending time with my family and Dear :) At home packing and cleaning up my area, and going out to explore new places and food! wahaha.. I applied for No-Pay-Leave cos I was expecting to have to return to school workshop to start working on our design project, or at least practising some machining or manufacturing skills.. As of now, I'm still trying to link up with the correct person to ask and enquire more, and TRY to get permission to use the labb.. arghh.

7 Dec. I created history (for myself). 42.195km.. hur hur . I didnt run the whole thing.. cos i didnt wan to aggravate my old injury. I walked quite abit though.. but I completed it (together with Dear and her bro!) haha :p Though after that, I couldnt drive for 3 days.. lols. A good way to save fuel eh? hur hur hur .

Think i might stick to 10km runs in future, at most 21km for AHM :)

Was jus looking at my possible timetable for next semester.. I'm faced with the prospect of having a loonngg tuesday.. 10am to 4pm, 6pm-9pm of lectures every tuesday.. hmmm.

The next event that is revving up my interest! :P
http://ocbc.cyclesingapore.com.sg/

2008-11-29T22:09:00.002+08:00

Exams:
2 papers down. 2 more to go..
Tuesday and Thursday.. the last lap. sighhh..
Hang on!!
Heat Transfer is sooo Fluid Mechanics lor.
At least, for the Convection part.
Yukkss..

Abit on home news.....
The terrorist attack in Mumbai has shocked and saddened many of us in Singapore..

My deepest condolences go out to the Lo family as well as to Mr Puhaindran and his family..

rest in peace . . .

1 paper down .. 3 more to go . . . . .

2008-11-25T22:40:00.004+08:00

ME3112 is over.. finally. I'd put in so much effort for it.. made a careless mistake, again.. grrrr. Though tat shld be a small mistake ba. Didnt know how to do Q4, so i jus copy and paste from notes, and agah agah fit in something that seems to make sense. (or did it? haa =x ) Overall, I hope it was okokayyyy for me today. *cross fingers*

Got 47 / 50 for my Heat Transfer quiz. Wouldnt say im unhappy, cos i think im lucky to escape heavy penalty for calculating something wrongly!!! It's something tat linked over to the 2nd part --- Q1 Area --- . Its the quiz which I also prepared super well for and put in so much effort.. Kinda happy tat I did well, though could have saved the 3 marks =X sighs.. Well, I dont really wanna compare with others, cos its jus useless. Sometimes, it demoralizes rather than encourages me cos I never seem to do as well as others do, however much or little effort I put in.

This semester I'd reali put in much more effort already, and studying hard with Dear =)
(Hope my efforts wont be wasted. sighs. )

Next paper on thursday.. Its total "brain exhaustation" for me, having been at Mechanics since 8.30am all thru 4.15pm with about 1hr breakk in between. Hope for the best for Materials. It's gonna be a closed book exam!! =X

*grrrr*

gonna sleep early tonite and then start hammering at it for materials tmr morning..

:)

reflections . . .

2008-11-22T22:01:00.002+08:00

Reading week.. helluva lots of things to do. I finally finished reading MOM today.. phew. gonna have to finish reading up Materials tmr, so as I can feel more at ease with myself. Much as I'd like to join the guys tmr to do MOM past yr papers, I think for my own 'safety', I'd better finish up Materials tmr first before I do anything else.. if not, my mood on monday would most likely be stuck on MOM, and the next time i'd be touching Materials is on Wed morning, and that would be disastrous and even more scary.

HR paper was over on Thursday.. I didnt have time to write all I really wanted to, so i had to cut short and write a quick conclusion, stopping when the examiner announced "Pls stop writing". My arm hurt from all the scribbling and writing! think my tutor would be having one heck of a time reading my handwriting.. It's like a spider falling into a bottle of ink and then climbing out and scampering all over the booklet. haha.

On thursday itself, i got to catch up with my good friend (but phantom in lecture), Craig. I always only see him during exam season at the exam venue! haha.. After my HR paper, I dropped by TH to collect my design log book, and so i also gave Craig a lift back to TH. Got to catch up a little with him. I also dropped by Raynor's room.. It was great to see Raynor again, and seeing him getting along seemingly well in hall. And i admire his room.. With his gadgets and all, it looks so cool la! haha.. Spent a great half and hour talking to him too :) though i felt rather bad waking him up.. had actually contemplated whether or not to wake him up, but craig solved that problem for me by giving a damn hard knock on his door. hahaha.. sorry raynor! lol

Haa. Sometimes I feel so resigned about things.. but owells. That's what life is all about right? And I have to learn -- and correct -- where I erred, and also to learn to handle situations in a better and more tactful way. Sighs.. Sometimes how i wish things were a little bit more different.. a little more leeway for me to move . . .

Thank you :)

2008-11-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

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bahhh!

:)

exam 'fever'

2008-11-18T20:50:00.002+08:00

2 more days to my first paper.. HR2002.

yayy!
((I'm sure I feel so 'yayy-ish'))

I've papers on the following days:
20 Nov (Thurs) : HR2002
25 Nov (Tues) : ME3112
27 Nov (Thurs) : ME2151
02 Dec (Tues) : ME3122
04 Dec (Thurs) : ME3162

And i'm still in the midst of it.. well, not exactly in the midst actually. haha
Gonna have to continue staying focused and continue working hard!
*roars*

Have 3 papers on the same days as Dear.. haha. Jiayous too! =)

Eh Benny! I noe what is last min studying la.. but engin if lidat, sure g.g. (ie good game).
haha..

I cant wait for exams to come..
though another biggg challenge awaits me.....

Standard Chartered Marathon 42.195km
I'm cominggg!!

Well, it's gonna be a walking race for me..
Been doing more exercises and abit more jogging..
though i'm still slow, my joints arent 'creaking' or giving me problems as much alrdy..
(I hope)
right right? i'm complaining less rite? more of into the 4th round lidat then complain rite? hahaha

Jiayous everyone! =))
Let's finish up our mugging for the next 2wks or so! =)

Cheers =)
-SR-

updates: CAA 091108

2008-11-09T20:41:00.006+08:00

okay.. been another long time since i last touched tis blogg..

Many days have passed, but I havent been studying much. Why?
Projects. 2 of them.. HR2002 and ME3101 Design Project.

Not that i'd complain much, since projects can be quite fun, if everything goes smoothly, and everything is managed efficiently. I just feel v sian that sometimes when u talk, people dont listen. It's like the ideas u suggest dont make a difference, and I'm just one stupid silly person. Then moments later, what u had been trying to put forth, is put forth. I dont mind people doing things together.. It can actually be quite efficient at times, since ideas are put forth together, and then solved together. But that's if there are alot of discussions -- productive ones -- which help to speed up the process of doing work..

Sometimes, I just feel that it's better to think about it individually first, then get together to discuss and put the pieces together, instead of sitting there for hours and each doing each individual parts, with no need for discussions, or sitting there and brainstorming for ideas right from scratch..

From doing tis projects, I really learnt alot.. alot about myself, about others, about my friends. I learnt how to handle different situations, especially frustrating moments where I just feel like letting off the steam and tell people off.. or moments where I just want to interrupt the whole world and just ask to be listened to for that few seconds.. or moments when I just feel so stupid, when something seem clear to others, but to me, it was nonsensical and mind-boggling....

The design project ate up my time the most..So much time spent on various parts of it, either doing new parts or fine-tuning existing parts, or worse-case, redoing them cos of errors I made.. Well, I didnt want to screw anything up. Not when I already have 2 members whom I dont know how to describe their level of initiativeness and responsibility and efficiency.

The presentation is supposed to be tomorrow 10 Nov.. However, last Monday evening, our prof informed us that the examiner cannot make it, and so we had to push it forward to last Friday, 7th Nov. It came as a stunner, and it started a week of sleepless-ness and frustrations and rushings..

Tuesday, we spent a full 8+hrs (from 10+ tp 6+) in the TH Boardroom working on the report and slides simultaneously. And at times, the air of tension built up.. But certain individuals deserved it.

Definitely.

I myself had swallowed down my disgust and anger countless times.

Wednesday came, initially for one round of initial rehearsals, but it became a session of 'slides corrections'.

[It seems like overnight, brain cells reworked again, and the preliminary slides which were 'approved' the day before to be suitable, suddenly became too draggy overnight. I didnt know slides when left alone overnight can grow to become more draggy after one night of hibernation.

Imagine u spent hours working on something the day before, and after showing it to be looked thru by a 2nd and 3rd party, it's approved to be suitable.. Then the very next day, people come and tell u that after looking at the first few slides, they want to fall asleep. And it's too long and wordy and all.. A totally different reaction from the day before. Then suddenly in front of everyone, I'm so damn silly and stupid and inefficient cos I dont know how to summarise slides and make them non-boring.]

Well, the presentation is over.. *sweat* After a heartstopping session of grilling, especially since I was one of the 2 presenters, it was over.
And I must say, I'm damn proud of our report..

Well, now it's time to start studying, finallyyyy.....
It's week 13, and my first paper is on 20th Nov. Tmr is 10th Nov.. sighs.
Well, I'l have to work hard from now on and not slackk too much.. In order to ensure that everything goes smoothly.. hopefully.

Happy 5 months Dear =)

A Nation In Concert: Wish Upon a Sea Star

2008-10-12T14:24:00.007+08:00

A Nation In Concert
A charity concert brought to you by volunteers and charity organisations,
such as :

Association for Persons with Special Needs
Handicaps Welfare Association
Singapore Association for the Deaf
Singapore Association of the Visually Handicapped

I watched the concert yesterday with Dear..
It was supposed to be for writing her Sci of music essay, but it couldnt be counted for writing,
so we just watched it, for fun.
It turned out to be well-worth the time, the money..
$70 for 2 ppl.. proceeds go to charity :)
I was very impressed by them performing,
not letting their disabilities get in the way of performing various items
items like singing, playing musical intruments,
even dancing, by the hearing impared..
Much of the moves included sign language,
which also brought the objectives of the show across,
and the words and meanings of the songs to the other hearing impaired community.

I was impressed :)
and very very touched . . .

I feel so lucky..
I suddenly felt so motivated,
and wanting to treasure what we have and make full use of what we can do,
not waste time, and treasure Life ! =)

Bravo! :)

4 months ler :)

happy children's day

2008-10-01T22:26:00.006+08:00

Happy Children's Day! =)

Yup, today's a public holiday too.. though we're far from the classification "Children"..
In fact, I'm 2x that max classification of age! sheesh..

Today was a slow day..
Morning: thought about modules and schedules for the remaining semesters i have in NUS
then went swimming with Dear when she woke up..
bought lunch home.
My Malay neighbours brought some of their Hari Raya goodies for my family,
and we had it for dinner.. super nice prawns! wahahaa..
A slow afternoon, read thru some HR2002 stuffs, looked at castor wheels again..
stoned and slacked abit.. talked with Deardear n played ard with my webcam :P

"Friends" -- the TV sitcom -- used to perk me up lots when i was sian or just felt like slacking..
but now, even it cant do much for me..
yupp, it still makes me laugh a good deal,
and being able to relate to the show..
Looking at Joey's antics and Chandler's jokes and lameness,
and how Ross and Monica and Rachael and Phoebe behaves,
portraying scenes which sometimes do happen to us in our lives with our close friends :)
but still, nothing beats having Dear around :)

t i r e d . . . .

Thursday is here in another 1.5hrs..
Have to do 3 things by this sunday (which are all due on Monday 6 Oct):
1) Design Log Book
2) HR2002 Reflection paper (if only I can make use of the literal meaning of "reflect".
ie. reflect a piece of paper in my mirror.. har har . )
3) E1 informal Lab report

and not that this wkend will be a free one..
3 big activities coming up on Fri Sat and Sunday.. haahaha :)

Big part of me looking forward to this weekend,
but i'm not looking forward to this wk ending so soon..
I wish after every public holiday, the next day wld be reset to monday again.. haha

Fat hope . . Sweet dreams =)

*hugs*

I love you :)

successful hosting of the 1st F1 Night Race

2008-09-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

Nice one! Our first hosting of the F1 Night Race has just ended,
with jus a few crashes, and quite some bit of exciting parts..
Well, actually found it very exciting, since tis is my 1st time watching F1.. lol.
Mountain Tortoise eh..
I think its better to watch from home rather than on scene,
cos i'l be able to see round the circuit, rather than jus seeing the cars zoom past me? haha..

N Yes, I think Singapore's night view is beautiful =)

I'l never get to go round on those roads past 90km/h,
let alone at those F1 cars speeds . . . haha

A List of Resolutions

2008-09-28T11:08:00.002+08:00

Resolutions for the next half of the semester

1) Stop Procrastinating and continue mugging hard and constantly!
ie . do tutorials constantly and not slackk halfway thru..
2) Stop Slacking (in close relation to point no. 1)
3) Doing my duty =) *grinz*

It's Week 7 . Second half of the semester is here.. Time to pull up my socks..
Cannot just let studies roll on slowly.. Not if I want to have a good boost for my CAP.
Been spending so much time of design project, meetings or thinking of things,
though it might not seem like i put in much effort on the outsides .
I think I left other things aside too much already..
So, time to pull up my socks.. A damn hard good pulll . . .
Must jiayous with Deardear :)
In the past week, been spending some time with Dear, studying and doing stuffs tgt,
and exercising too..
How I wish time didnt fly so fast..
But for us, it was time well-spent..
and We'l continue focus, and continue working hard to achieve our goals, right? :)

One major event for me at the end of this yr..
On 7 Dec 08 . Standard Chartered Marathon . . . 42.195km .
I probably cant run all the way for the whole event,
cos of my potential knee problems..
have been taking glucosamine, hope it will help somewhat..
But I'll try to finish the thing ba, even if it means walking most of the way?
and finish it with Dear..
and another aim : to get at least IPPT Silver by the end of the year!

Yepp, my 2 aims by the end of this yr 2008 . (ie, on the sporting side) ..

it's thursday . . (and some long overdue photos)

2008-09-25T20:37:00.007+08:00

Been studying at Dear's house for the past 2 days..
didnt drive for once (well, twice actually.. yesterday and today. haha)
And took bus.. A form of transportation which I've not taken for some time..
but i'm not rusted in the form of taking public transport.. haha.
Kinda brought back some memories of JC days, walking to that busstop, looking out for the bus, and brisk walking to catch it.. lols .
And walking down (and up) flights of stairs.. haha

Hello Helloo!! HDB! Can i have a 50% discount if I apply for a second season car parking pass? =)

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It's thursday, 25 September 08..
It means, mid term break is coming to an end..
Or shld i say, mid term "break"? haha.
There's so much to do, so much to catch up,
and also have had 2 meetings this wk for our SATS project already,
with the third scheduled for tomorrow. F r i d a y . .
hopefully it wont be another 3/4day meeting, so at least i can do abit of catching up for Heat Transfer and also for Mechanics of Machines..

Still intend to work on my reflection paper for HR and finish my crazy lab report by tis week..
Hopefully.

Quite interested in getting the L-shaped table from Ikea.. hahaha. Itchy itchy!

Was looking thru Jian's website.. my bdae party photos are there! haha..
Still rmb tat day, the whole gang went to Fish and Co at Glass House for celebration =)
Here are some pictures . . long due . . . hahaha..

here's a random picture took that day.. hahaha .

Here's a picture taken at Kyrin's 21st Birthday party earlier this yr..

At Mel's house on 13 Sept 08, Mel's 21st birthday . . .

updates after 1 monthhh

2008-09-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

haha.. well, almost one month since i last touched my blog.. been a busy time.
Numerous things have come and gone..
and many more memories formed along the way =)
Mondays to Thursdays are working days..
Fridays and Saturdays are spent with my special someone..
Fridays in school, until evening.. Saturdays at Dear's house, doing work or stuffs tgt..

Most important . . . =)
It's been almost 4mths since we are tgt already.. It's a great new life, with many new things, and many many more to come =) We caught many things together, such as the Singapore Fireworks Festival, as well as movies.. Wall-E was especially nice! =) A movie with almost no conversations or words in it.. but all the expressions were all so well-expressed.. it was a movie which i enjoyed with Dear most.. plus watching at the Grand Cathay with the nice comfy seats.. haha.

Yup, things do need some adapting along with this 'new life'.. She's already immersed into my life for literally almost everything.. and i've got no complaints :p . jogging and swimming together just arent so sian anymore.. (though i am a slow runner.. gotta train up! haha) . Each time we are together, time just seem to fly past so fast.. and before we know it, night is already here, and its either time for me to go back for dinner, or rest.. Am slowly getting to noe some of her hall-mates, her direct neighbours, as well as the level3 guys.. so at least, it wun make washing up in hall (if i ever do) so stealthy.. hahaha.

There have been ups and downs along the way, times where i felt lost, frustrated, Dear never failed to be there with me whenever she could.. and times when she was involved in IBG or playing sports, I just cant help but worry bout her knees and ankle..

Dear's family have been taking good care of me too, and I've never felt so touched and gan dong for a long long time.. I've spent quite a bit of time eating at her house with her family, and each time never fails to be a great relaxing time.. and the 4 tyres were just . . . wow .. thank you =) I also hope that tis semester we can pull our CAP together.. and we'l continue working hard together! =))

School Life . . . . .
Back to school life, well, the ME3101 SATS project have been keeping me busy.. with meetings and discussions, ideas thinking and refining, and looking out for new suggestions.. my ironing board came into play! like how it works, what makes it work, the mechanisms and all.. the project also allowed me to have a first hand view of the workers on the ground.. ie the loading and unloading of airplanes, coming up close to an airplane from beneath the giant plane, looking at the equipments and vehicles moving around on the tarmac 24/7, I've never thought i'd get a chance to experience all these first-hand.. Well, now I did :) though some experiences are interesting.. such as, we all have to book-in at the airport police pass office in T2 to obtain a visitors' pass before we can enter the complex, and this means exchanging our ICs for a pass.. well, for me, I only have my SAF 11B (green IC), and this means it is my form of identification, ie my IC. So naturally, it is what i use for exchanging for pass.. Both times which i was at the airport, the guards gave tat shocked look, like "who's 11B is this?", and I hav to surrender my NUS matric card as well, since they said 11B's are allowed.. though i dont really know why that is so, I just do it.. (I'm still wondering why SAF 11B's arent allowed for exchanging of visitors' passes in the complex).. anyways, working with SATS is definitely a whole new experience altogether, though for now, bulk of the time is still spent in school..

Having spent so much time on the project and long days in school, inevitably, some "sacrifice" have been made out of my other modules, and so, this mid-term breakk tis wk is about time to play "catch-up" with the lectures and modules.. once again, the slackness of ME Dept prevails, and we dont have any midterm tests (as compared to Dear having 5.. oops. haha . ).. tis is both good and bad.. Good, meaning, we still can afford to catch up at our comfortable pace (though it shldnt be too comfortable, ie too sloww).. but bad --> this means our percentages of CA are only 20-80.. ie 20% labs, 80% final exam.. that's one heck of a big percentage to place upon our final exam.. and well, midterm tests, though we do dread it if we have them, actually do make us study and keep up with the work, so that we do not have to cram work tat came in right from the beginning of the semester into the last 2 3wks before the exam..

Well, I shld do some studying tis week.. I reali reali should, if i want to pull up my CAP somemore . . .

Nokia E51
I've just changed my hp to the new Nokia E51 over the weekend, for $0, since i was just renewing my contract.. now Student Plan unlimited SMS to singtel user.. yayyy!! =P initially, during the Jul hols, i thought that the E51 would be a little bit too small for my fingers, and when Daniel (Teo) first suggested to me to try changing to that, I din explore tat idea.. however, now that my renewal was due, I couldnt resist getting the phone without cost (other than $6 for the screen protector), and yepp.. now i'm using it.. so far it's proving to be fine *touch wood*, and the speed is definitely faster than my E60.. though my big fat fingers sometimes do press 2 keys instead of 1 when i type too fast.. lols.

F1 in Singapore: the night race
F1 is coming.. drove thru part of the road outside Suntec City on friday evening, while they switched on part of the super bright lights to test them.. while night cant be changed into day for sure (that'd upset the whole solar system and probably a significant aspect of Science), the lights are doing their job of lighting the roads to super bright conditions.. during that brief drive, I felt that the street lamps were useless already.. haha. I hope the event is a success when it starts this weekend, and everything just runs smoothly..

Just had a meeting at the airport again in the morning, followed by discussion at Sam's house, before I met Dear for a swim then go home.. tmr's another meeting with Prof Tay to clear the idea and slides with him..

Car's due for 40000km servicing tmr.. gonna be in school the whole dayy . . . zzzzzz . 0.O

Happy belated mid-autumn festival everyone!

And to everyone who has mid-term tests, jiayous! =)

its Sunday!!

2008-08-24T16:35:00.004+08:00

what a rainy sunday.. it's been raining all day!! sheeshh..
Today's the closing day of the Olympic Games..
Goodbye sports, will be missing watching some of the sports. haha

24 Aug 08, 2100hrs

yayy.. its sunday. Well, i'm both happy, and not.. haha.
Happy cos its the wkend, a day to pass at a slower pace..
but i jus wish i had the chance to spend with someone too. haha

Friday's fireworks werent too bad.. 20-25min of fireworks non-stop.
To put it simply, it was just beautiful..
And made much more memorable watching it with Dear =)

Saturday too was great, spending it with Dear, & doing abit of work together too..

Today was more of stoning..
I have things to do, yet i dun feel like doing anything . sighs..
If i dont start soon, things will start piling up, and that's not very healthy isn't it?
Sometimes i wish i wasnt such a silly stupid boy too..

C'mon.. Jiayou Sirong!! *growls*

And yes, sometimes I jus wish & wish that time doesnt pass so quickly...
Happy 78 days Dear :)

end of wk2 NUS

2008-08-22T12:43:00.003+08:00

yeah.. wk 2 has come to an end.
how fast......
tutorials start next wk.. Well, sOme of them..

Early tis wk, it was a nerve biting time [actually tis nerve biting time started since last friday]
Reason? We were anxious of whether or not we (my ME3101 Design project group) had gotten the project with SATS successfully, after a presentation to 2 staff of SATS to sell ourselves and tell them why they should choose us.. there were 3 groups vying for this project. The decision making too days i guess.. and when monday came and went, with no information, we were more ganjiong (anxious) by the minute.. We spent so much time refreshing our email windows, and as Sam put it, his F5 key would be spoilt soon! haha.. Wednesday came, and finally at 4pm, we got our answer.. We'd gotten the project with SATS! pheww =) what a joy to us.. cos we reali wanna work with them for the design project. And this project would last us for 1 whole yr, including the Dec hols and next yr May-Aug hols.. I'm so looking fwd to this project and working with SATS .
p/s: SATS == Singapore Airport Terminal Services

Today is Friday! The day of the Fireworks Festival =) Looking fwd to going to this event with Dear tonite =)

this is is 2006's one.. or last yr's? haha

Pride at the Olympics ( + catching up.. )

2008-08-17T21:44:00.005+08:00

Okays.. been 2wks since i last posted an entry here..
haha. been a busy 2wks i guess.. more or less.

Updating in progress . . . . . .
(beware, long wordy post ahead..)

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The Olympic Games
Today. Just under under 2.5hrs ago..
A match that i wldnt miss it for the world..
Well, unless its for 1 special person =)
Singapore played against China in the Women's Table Tennis Finals, vying for Gold,
assured of a Silver after beating Korea, having played all 5 matches against them..
To see the Singapore Flag being risen together with China's and Korea's Flags, I would safely say that any Singaporean would feel the pride on seeing that sight..
After so long (48yrs), Singapore is able to see her flag -- OUR flag -- being raised at the Olympic Games =)
A Silver Medal! Cheers!! :)
How I wish I was in Beijing in the Peking University Gym just now.. haha.
Just like how I wished to be at each National Day Parade each year..
And feel the pride when u see the Singapore Flag flying high in the sky..
Some ppl might say "wow patriotism!" with a tinge of sarcasm or whatsoever, but what the heck.
We're Singaporeans afterall.. If we cant be proud of our own country, what else can I say?
Anywaes, I congratulate Team Singapore for having done a great job,
esp the Women's Table Tennis team, for having made China earn their Gold medal..
Havent reali been able to catch much Olympics action this time around,
but I would say China certainly played well, especially Zhang Yining..
Singapore also did well, considering we didnt lose every single game to them, but rather, at times, created nail-biting moments..
Cheers to Singapore and her players! =)

Okays, back to Singapore for real.. haha.
The past 3wks have been busy, so to speak..
In a nutshell, I had my last wk of VA which ended on 8 Aug 08.
A week that I was kept busy, not by work, but other things as well..
Things that i dun regret doing =) [onli someone wld noe.. haha]
A good 3wks of ups and downs, of happiness yet mixed with worry at times..
Not due to problems created by uS, but by a little something -- system -- called CORS.
Yup, it seems to be system that is organised.. and fair.
(Not intending to rub any salt into any wounds, my non-engin friends..)
To us Engin students, we probably wldnt face this problem much since our modules all more or less allocated, ie assured of getting the modules we want (or need, actually)
Or more specifically, Mech Engin ppl..
but to ppl in SoC or Science, as I've seen for myself tis semester, its more than jus another bidding exercise..
To a certain extent, like some kinda investment or stock exchange..
I've seen Dear and another of my best friends fight to the core,
and experiencing depressing and exasperating moments with CORS..
And sending numerous email appeals and pleadings..
and the person at the other end keep saying to wait for the next round and send in another appeal after the round has ended..
but one would wonder at the non-feeling-email reply which the party at the other end gives..
one short paragraph (if we can even call it a paragraph) that basically tells u to w a i t .
And another reply from a prof that goes "Then wait for our reply."
Yes, that coming from an academic P R O F E S S O R in a Singapore University..
In response to a student's plea to assist, and request for advice on the next course of action..
When i saw that, i was simply dumbfounded / amazed / stunned -- whatever shocked words that can be used to describe it..
Not even a word of advice or reassurance, or at least to understand the situation, or set up an appointment for a meeting with him to at least tRy to listen and see the circumstances,
all the while the student is politely appealing to him for help and advice, and politely replies his email each time..
yeah right, CORS appeal system works.. i'm sure .
Well, after 2whole wks of anxiety and frustration which Dear and I shared,
finally, on thursday, the last resort seemed to work..
A whole load of anxiety and worry finally was lifted off our shoulders..
2wks of sleeplessness, of unrest & repeated refreshing of the NUS Email and CORS webpages..
sighs.
But i'm glad we worked thru it fine.. :)
and emerged even stronger, we did =)

Fast forwarding, 1wk of lectures have passed..
Some introductory, some moving onto more things..
One thing for sure, i shld be concentrating most at Prof Seah's lectures again =)

Friday
My group had a presentation to SATS to compete with 2 other groups for our ME3101 design project.. up til now, still no reply or results of the presentation whatsoever..(ie results of who will get the project)
Also, Dear and my plans were kinda spoilt by some events,
but we made it thru.. and dinner was very very special along West Coast Park Beach =)

Saturday, Dear and I spent a whole day together, doing things and stuffs together :)
and I super enjoyed that day lots! *jumps* haha.. dinner at her house with her family..

Today, jus did some readings, reprinting, bind notes, pump fuel, bought KFC for dinner,
and then watched the Olympic Games *cheers* . plus talked to Dear, of course.. :)
and now, (duhh..) blogging and updating and ranting..
before I go to sleep..
Cant wait to start a next good week with deardear :)
now with things settled down and steadier.. hee.
And I have something to look fwd to the end of tis wk..
The Singapore Fireworks Festival with dear! =))

2mths plus and going stronger and stronger, day by day :)
*hugs hugs*
Yay! Happy! Wheee! haha

2008-08-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

*hopes for hall orientation to end soon*

hahahaha..

I miss u :)

end of another week..

2008-08-01T19:57:00.001+08:00

okie.. end of another week , officially. It's friday.. haaa.
Next wk is week 0, which also is my last wk of work..
not sure if i'l return for VA this yr Dec & next yr May-Jul/Aug..
Hoping to snare the design project that i want so that i'l be able to do a stint with an external company.. either ST Kinetics or Society of the Physically Disabled or SATS will be fine..

Last friday was our Car Rally..
was so damn shagged out after the day's events..
& yea, turned out din feel too well tat night, n the day after..
and then my immune system seems to be hanging in the air. haha
Now my nose seems to wanna run away from me all the time,
and i seem to feel very hot all the time.. isit the weather?!! lol

tis few days hav been slowly clearing half days,
except for today..
I miss dear so much..
it jus pains me to hear her voice so strained and tight and uncomfortable =(
I hope the lemon honey n drink helps..
cant wait for Thursday to come again.. sighs .
gonna be a sianz wkend =(
Wun be able to catch the NDP casing/uncasing at Suntec City alrdy, or catch some action at the NDP tis yr live, either at the preview (tmr) or actual day,
so the next best for us is the Fireworks Festival at the end of August.. :)

2008-07-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

Dammit CORS.
I believe im helping some, if not, most ppl curse CORS for its "helpfulness".
It creates more problems for us all, though at first look and understanding, its 'efficient'?
Have seen countless ppl facing problems with CORS,
Especially ppl from Computing & Science, since they have to bid for their own core modules,
and yeah, they cAn be outbidded despite the fact that it is a core module..
How ironic.
A student majoring in the subject cant bid for the module that he/she needs..

Dear will be going off for hall orientation camp le..

t o r m e n t e d

2008-07-30T09:24:00.005+08:00

its only mid-week.. started off well, super well .
but now its only mid-week, and its been so damn sucky.

t o r m e n t e d .
I read this somewhere, how seemingly similar..........

How do it feel to have ur own close one, ur own family member, to be so untrusting towards you? To remember, and focus on, all ur not-so-good points, which are all of the past, and keep bringing them up. Yet when you try to explain yourself, you get shot down. Its all so unfair....

I've been working and trying so damn hard to prove myself these few weeks, and changing so many things, putting so many things at stake, at risk, sacrificing other things, sacrificing my own freedom, my own flexibility of time, all because i wanted to prove to you that i respected you so much so much still.. the next person closest to me has to endure the stress of inflexibility, AND especially the stress of having to "adhere" to my timings so that i dont get into trouble when i get home... Yes. It's all bearable actually. I super appreciate that she didnt leave me just because of this (while perhaps others might have done so), and I love her so so much.. In fact, all these years, there were moments that i wanted to speak up so much, or more drastically, to rebel, to talk back, to do all the things contrary to what you like me to do. But I didnt. I didnt at all.. Yes, once or twice, i talked back, I tried to explain to you that i wanted some degree of freedom as well, I tried to show to you that I can be trusted. But you refused to allow me to show it. Yeah, there were times that I was partly in the wrong, but i didnt like to take full responsibility because it wasnt all totally my fault! But in the end, yeah, it was like it was all my fault. I sucked it up....

I first tried to explain to you why i didnt inform and update you first. You didnt want to listen. You just kept cutting me off and going back to why i didnt update you. When I was trying so damn hard to tell u something. Yes, i really wanted to prove to you that things are different. I'm not as bad as you always think. I'm not that brainless or stupid or whatever. I thought you'd realised it by now. But i guess I was wrong. Totally.

Then, I tried to explain to you the reasons for what i wanted to do. It is a damn blardy valid reason for goodness sake. But since it was more complex than just simply "oh i just wanted to change it", I tried to explain from the beginning. You refused to listen. Not just by ignoring me, but you told me straight to my face that you didnt want to listen. Who in the world says such a thing nowadays??!!! Only people like strangers and damn unreasonable bosses tell that to their subordinates. Even the SAF nowadays hardly have such things happening. Why? because its freaking unreasonable and unfair to the person in question, in this case, it's me. I tried to say it out, you refused to listen. You kept cutting me off and interrupting me and scolding me. You kept telling me not to involve any other thing when I tried to explain to you another aspect of things. Yet U are the one who keeps referring to that thing when you are blasting at me. So ok, i tried another method... I tried to write it out, thinking that it will be better for you to read it when you've cooled down. Yeah, your reply? You first said that you wont read it. If i show it to you, you will cancel all the loans and everything else. That is also damn freaking unreasonable. Yes, later you said that i can write it out, then after going thru it, then at night i can talk about it. Yeah. I'm sure you meant it with your heart when you said that. I replied to you: "i didnt have to write and digest it. Because i have already run through what i wanted to say, countless times. So now i didnt have to rethink or digest at all.. " Yeah, I meant it. Totally..

3years ago in August 05, after i lost my first camera handphone, i bought another one to replace it, the motorola one. I got scolded by you upside down inside out.. I got ripped apart, just becos of the reason which you gave me, with regards to the month i bought it. I didnt know it then, so yeah, it was my mistake, and i remembered it ever since. Now, that month is approaching again, and also just happens to coincide with the need to change something, so i remembered what you told me so deeply 3years ago, and I made the effort to avoid doing things during that month. I got scolded again, because it seemed like i dont know how to think, to save money etc etc etc... and now u keep "quoting me" for saying that, and applying it to things that have utterly zero links with it. what a joke..... don't you remember that U were the one who told me in the first place on that day 3years ago in July/August 2005?!?

Time and again, you keep using threats against me. You keep using such things to pressurise me. Yeah. I sucked it all up. I swallowed it all down. Because I know ultimately you meant well. I really did. But it was the last straw already. Never have i expected that i would be so unjustly judged and treated by anyone that close to me. Never. I'm totally saddened, shocked, stunned, whatever words that can be used to describe in this meaning. It all applies.. This holidays, i had my happiest times, but yesterday was my saddest day, the worst day. I have never reached the stage i was so frustrated i had to yell n scream it all out in the way that i did. But yeah, obviously, yesterday, I did. I couldnt take it any longer. I really cant. I'm already how old already.. Can i not think for myself? Can i not have some degree of freedom n flexibility for myself in terms of time & making decisions especially?

Its not that i want to pull away and suddenly gain full "independence" or throw you away or leave the family that kinda stupid thing. But it seems like that is the kind of thought and fear that gnaws at you. I dont know, really. I'm only guessing. And that is the only logical thing I can think of why you are treating me this way, other than wanting good for myself. For that, I thank you. Please. I'm already at this age, I still have to face curfews like returning home by 10pm, or by the time i roughly estimated for you, which is also before 10pm for crying out loud. I still have to face the situation that if i return home any later than the said time, I get torn apart & yelled at & called a liar and non-trustworthy. Isnt that the treatment that primary and secondary school kids should be having? It is not that i dont know that you mean well, for my safety at night and for me to have enough sleep.. I really do know it. And I do understand, and I myself, not being a night animal either, also dont stay out til such weird times n do weird things. But now its really gone too far.. I dont feel like a free person. I feel like a prisoner. Or someone on probation might be more appropriate..... Yes, a person on probation has a curfew as well. But at least the person only has to report to the councillor at the stipulated times, and still has the freedom of doing his own things on his own accord, with his own flexibility, according to his own wants. I don't.

I'm not asking you to heck care me totally and leave me to be a hooligan on the loose.

All i wish for now is to have my own flexiblity, some degree of freedom, and for you to cool it more, slow down a little and listen & understand things..

I love you.

Racial Harmony Day 08

2008-07-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

RHD was yesterday, 21st July every yr. haha
brought back memories when we opened the audit ytd,
reminded me of last yr, how we slogged our way thru organizing this event n making it a great success..
tis yr, it was down to us again, though there was a lil bit more involvement..
After the event, we changed out and headed to Dragon Gate Restaurant for the promotion dinner.. not my (or our VA promotion), but promotion for many others..
the dinner went well, food was acceptable i guess ..
though the sound system wasnt exactly one that could be described as "good sound system"..
but still, we had a good time chatting, while Raynor was off taking photos for each table,
just like those photographers we see at weddings =P hehs..

So fast, VA is coming to an end.. so many weeks have passed..
During semester time, it would equate to one semester having gone past,
and now is probably the reading week period? ahaha..
& speaking of which, school will be starting soooooooonnn.. 11 August.
Now is the time to worry bout what modules to take,
and for me, to think about what specialisation as well.
Am considering Offshore Oil & Gas Technology,
but that would mean that this semester, i have to take a module which relates to this specialisation, which means i have to forgo one module to take this.. sighs.
Afew more days to consider the option.. to take or not to take? hmmm..
or shld i focus more thoughts on Aeronautical or Automotive Engineering? bleahhz 0.O

Thurs is our VA Cohesion Day! yayys.. We can "officially" relax on an "official" work day..
hahaha

2008-07-13T21:00:00.005+08:00

Yups.. more than 1 mth alrdy =)
Yayy! Happy!! Wheee! =p

Haha.. sounds random? lols .

Been an interesting wkend.. feels like tat time when i went off for engin camp .
Though tis time it isnt me who's going off the trial camp or whatsoever >.o

Bought 3 books yesterday..
Yeshh, 3 !
Saw the promotion in Times at Marina Square, buy 3 books at the price of 2 .
And so i grabbed the chance n bought 3 books! wheeee!!
Was watching High School Musicals over 2 nights as well.. it was great i feel.
Makes me so tempted to watch the High School Musical On Ice la.. haha
but while the show is appealing, the prices arent exactly appealing.. hur hur =x

hm some photos.. tat accident 3wks ago . *ouch*

4 more wks to yr3 aka semester 5 aka start school again.. haha

2008-07-06T21:21:00.004+08:00

Yes.. 4 more wks! times sure fliesss.. *vrrooommm!*
just like that, gone.. its now almost 8wks of VA alrdy, & 4more wks to sch starting once again..
and time sure seem to reali fllyyyy when im with her.. super fast. haha
yayy end work ler.. Yay! Happy! Wheeee! =P
Been receiving many congrats from many friends.. haha. thanks! =)

Looking at the new semester schedule, it is as follows, tentatively:

ME2151 : Tuesday 1400-1600 LT7
Thursday 1100-1200 LT7

ME3101 : Wednesday 1600-1700 LT7

ME3112 : Tuesday 1600-1800 LT7
Thursday 1400-1500 LT7A

ME3122 : Wednesday 1400-1600 LT7

ME3162 : Friday 1400-1600 LT7

HR2002 still tbc, dun have exam time yet.. seems like a spaced out exam as well. (hopefully)

This sem must fa4 fen4 tu2 qiang2 & work reali reali hard..
to continue pulling up my cap once again, & continue climbing upwards..
haha, there's some motivation tis semester liao, so I must continue to work hard =)
kinda am half awating sch to start again, & half not wanting it to start, ever..
but *knock knock* Back to reality.. it will not nOt start again. har har .
Having 5 core modules kinda suck already.. but having HR2002 some human & economy thingy,
technically, it is nOt a core module, but it is afterall a faculty requirement..
so i classify it as a core. haha..
6 "core" modules . == cannot take other modules from other facs . == bbboorriinngggg .....
will be confined to onli engin this semester.. argghhh .

Been spending quite abit on my car.. cos of certain reasons =x
so quite pock gai tis month.. still can re-live tat fateful friday..
but in those split seconds, there was nthg else i could do.. (i think).
but luckily all's fine n nthg much happened.. other than the bonnet & frame & no. plate..
po4 cai2 xiao1 zai1 . 405 + 195 + petrol costs == $ ??? dun dare calculate. hur hur..

Hm, work work . Wish i could help raynor n them more, but sometimes i also get someone down my neck, & expecting me to know everything..
though yeah, i do wish i had better knowledge in programming/design stuffs, then can help out with the programming & designing part..
hm, maybe its time for me to pick up some new skills eh? hmmm.
& try to ignore how much i hated programming in C .. haha. O.o

Back to work again tmr..

& T u e s d a y . . 8 July . . =))

Half day leave.. Yayys =)

some funny videos for viewing:

2008-06-29T12:25:00.005+08:00

hm, and so, another week has passed..
A long, week.. sometimes it felt v long, at other times, it felt superly sloww..
All in all, i still managed to time-manage properly.. balancing things out :)
Many things happened tis wk.. ups and downs.
But nothing beats being with u, always.. thanks for standing by me =)
gonna have a big hole in my pocket soooonn, but i'm just glad that we are both safe..
spent the day with her yesterday.. a simple yet eventful & enjoyable day..
I feel so lucky & fortunate . . =)

resting for the day, relaxing & spending time with family..
back to work again tmr, and another week..

5 more days of work dear! =)

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Upcoming main events for the week:

>> 1 July Tuesday : SAF Day

>> resume training for ippt once again!

>> send car for servicing on sat.. haha.

- 2055 hrs -

end of a wk, beginning of another wk.. End of June is here..

2008-06-22T17:25:00.004+08:00

haa, as the title says.. the end of june is here. week starting 23rd June is here.
time reali flies fast.. v e r y f a s t .
Its been 6weeks since exams have ended n the hols have started,
and in another 6 or so, school is gonna start again.. after National Day.

Been also 2wks now, exactly 2 sundays ago =))
happy days have passed, and im looking fwd to more happy ones coming =)
thought that the past wk wld be so busy, but somehow, we still found time to meet..
and yes, she came all the way to sch and brought aloe vera gel for me
despite being so tired after work.. thank u!! :)
it was so super touching :)

spent yesterday morning at home, then was out with her :)
havent been to the Botanic Garden for like yearsSs now..
but apparently it hasnt changed much..
i rmb the Shaw foundation stage which our VJC band performed there in 03 (i think)
yesterday the orchestra was playing some songs, afew of which i recognised..
but it was the company that mattered, whO i went with =)
A super nice saturday spent :)
looking fwd to the next one, definitely.. haha

tis wk there's ippt on thursday, wonder how im gonna do well for tat..
since i've not reali trained much, considering the past wk was in sch..
well, i didnt train.. there wasnt time.
whatever time i had was jus to sit n rest my legs n butt.
the total number of hrs i slept from monday to wed was what i could sleep in one normal night..
ok digressed.. haha
Yes, ippt..
gonna be doing some running with dear tis wk, before actual test on thursday..
hopefully all the running which i did (not exactly alot, but i DID run afterall :p )
will help me hav a decent timing for silver..
though im superly worried bout pullups.. =(
gonna have to sleeeepppp early on wednesday night..

I'm sooo looking fwd to fridays & saturdays too :)
and not leaving out tis fri & sat, of course.. =)

end of engin camp!!

2008-06-20T15:33:00.003+08:00

end of Engin Camp! "ORD" loh..
hahaa im sure =p
i'l nvr ord for at least another 6yrs to come..

1 whole wk, been in sch for Engin camp..
helping Sara with logistics..
n terrorised by the Van (Hyundai H100).
not that it gave me much problems..
but i was driving it every single day, and got sooooo tired from it..
its the first time i was ever soo shagged out from driving! haha..
everyday, the third thing i did was to touch the van..

why the third thing? becos:
1) Wash up
2) link up with Kenneth and Wei Juin (the log guys) at the dining hall
3) start up the van, warmup and collect breakfast

driving n carrying stuffs, i tink it jus made kenneth weijuin and me totally drained out..
I tried not to nOt drive the van, since i was designated to ferry pp to and from The House for fright night..
but on wed night, on fright night itself, after coming back n driving afew trips, i conceded defeat and asked Eddie to take over me to continue driving the van..
I was reali totalllyyyyyy drained out .

But overall, I guess things still went fine..
I hardly got to play or interact though..
Someone brought aloe vera gel for me on tuesday night, came all the way to school..
was so super touched.. =)

haa, well, am glad that the whole wk went fine for sara, in the sense nothing reali bad happened or sth like that.. :)
and i definitely made a few new friends from the comm! =))
ppl who i didnt meet at all, cos i cldnt make it for any dry runs or anything..
but during the camp, we worked together, n made new friends! :))

now, time for a good rest today,
and yes, next monday, backk to worrkkk..

watching Penelope tonight! =)) yayys

a great wk and the start of another

2008-06-15T21:38:00.004+08:00

the end of a super nice week :)
started off with Kungfu Panda =)
and then the week jus flew past, happily.. but too fast too fast.

yesterday was spent washing n doing a big cleanup for my car together,
and then the rest of the day was spent at changi airport

tis coming week, 16-20th june, will be spent at engin camp 08
part of the log comm, and having a drivers' license, well, driving the log van..
haa.

i hope the week will pass quickly..
but it will be a tiring one..
looking fwd to saturday again =))

2008-06-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy boy =)

abandoned blog

2008-06-06T21:39:00.004+08:00

haa.. seemed like i'd not visited here for some time .
been soo busy..
well, partly cos kept myself busy.. partly cos of many things at work too :)
haha still hoping to be one of the military ushers at NDP tis yr.. no reply yet. lol
but so far its been a bearable hols :)

engin camp's coming up.. 16-20th june .
havent been able to go back much to help out due to many things at work,
plus timing tat jus didnt fit in for me to assist..
feel v bad at times, but ohwells.. i jus try my best to help sara. Food & Transport..

below: pics from the 2nd night of the opening of the Singapore Arts Festival =))

2008-05-25T09:28:00.002+08:00

ok, 2 weeks have passed, just like that..
2wks back at work alrdy. wow.. how time flies..
without knowing it, some things have progressed at work..
though the workload is building up.. haha.
figuring out how to organise for DSP tis time around, since its also the 1st ever to be organised..
every few days, jus attempt to run & exercise, in hope of burning the fats around my waist,
as well as improving my stamina & run faster!

ultimate goal: IPPT Silver .

Other than work, it had been a relatively fun week too..
Got to chill out after work, & destress/relax..
Gone out for dinner 3times tis wk, once for icecream, & caught Indiana Jones too! =)
Yesterday also went for a run from Hougang (to be exact, fr the edge of AMK Ave 5) to the open field opp Compass Point, to catch Weiliang's frisbee competition..
then went for breakfast.. havent walked so far for soooo long! (from one estate to another, literally. haha)
caught the opening for Singapore Arts Fest at Boat Quay..
though the beginnings of the performance on water was kinda abstract (or 'cheem'),
the endings of it were pretty much impressive, especially the fireworks..
havent seen such low-"flying" fireworks before! =))

2008-05-20T19:46:00.002+08:00

A relatively short week this week..
though shld be quite packed with stuffs too..
with BSC internal discussion tmr, and then the main 'coord' on Friday..
Thurs there's bowling, so it shldnt be too long a day too :p

Had interval training today.. almost died. haha..
sighs. totally cui.. reali felt like giving up along the way, when it was jus into the 4th round.
but somehow, jus pressed on..
"switch off, and just run." sth lidat.. i quote from weiliang. haa
no choice.. hav to press on fully..

2008-05-19T09:54:00.003+08:00

Another new week is here..
Vesak Day today :)

I want NDP Tickets! hahaha =) *cross fingers*

IPPT is coming soon.. need to continue and strive to train hard,
and reduce my tummy.. haha

exactly 4 months. 19th..

back to work

2008-05-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Hm, monday, 12th May, back to work again..
usual place, minus the lecture rm which we had before..
dun tink i hav to talk much bout tis cos Raynor has expressed most of my sentiments too..
hehs

well, got 2 big arrows this time around..
and probably thanx to someone else as well . =x
The good thing is probably i'l get to be kept busy with things,
and perhaps i can sort myself out too,
have my own "escape" from everything and everything..?
Actually i've kinda been waiting for this period to arrive so that i could have a break from school,
and then move away from many things, and get my thoughts and feelings sorted out..
been in this turmoil for too long, i jus wanna straighten myself out too..
my own mini getaway.. haa.

sigh...

I went for a run today.. in fact, 2 runs .
T i r e d , but feeling fine still. haha
Jus that im having jelly legs and arms now..
Enjoying my runs ..

Thought that this video is super meaningful.. (video is in 2 parts)

"Who Moved My Cheese"

summing up the semester..

2008-05-11T21:55:00.004+08:00

Okays, the semester has ended.. guess i shall do a small summary of the semester? haha
This semester has been one big one, and fast..
Every single thing jus seem to fly.
The semester started on 2nd wk of Jan 08, with 6 modules.. 5 core & 1 GEM.
Yes, Heavenly Mathematics.. haha

Many many many things happened in this semester..
To list everything, it'd take a long time to write.. haha.
Many things crossed my path, good ones, bad ones, happy ones, and sad ones..
The happy ones lifted me up when i was down, when i was dragging my feet in the sand & mud..
and i'm really thankful for the opportunity that i had to experience those times..
and gave me the chance to go through them & enjoy them ..
But when the rocks (some seemed more like boulders) hit me, it reali pulled me down..
and along the way during the semester, i lost my sense of direction totally..

Nope, it doesnt mean that im bearing grudges, and just simply forgotten memories..
No, they're not forgotten..
In fact, quite the opposite.

I still miss those times.. I really do. Many a times, i wish and wish for it all to rewind again,
that everything would be the way it was right from the start..
Those were my happiest times, and i never regretted spending those times..
or sacrificing certain things to make those times happen..
Yeah, perhaps they werent spectacular, but they meant everything to me..
and up til now, if there was anything i could do to have it all again, I'd do it..
& i'd never forget the foodfair at Suntec City that day..
That was the last time I was really really happy..
for the rest of the semester, things flipped..
I tried to pick myself up and move on.. It was the hardest thing i ever did.

Academically, things werent simple.. In fact, many things sucked. haa..
Getting lost in notes, and getting even more lost as time went by..
Studying was accompanied by sweets, books, youtube, dvds, Prison Break,
and more recently in the weeks leading up to the end of the sem, I got introduced to Friends..
and i'm simply hooked on them :)
It's a happy show, hilarious, yet certain things which they experience in the show,
actually we can relate to them as well..
Am now near the ending of Season 4..

Along the way in the sem, I strengthed friendships,
and made some new friends as well..
But now that the hols are here, some are going away, most wld be busy,
in fact, i'd be back at work tmr as well, 8-5.30 each day..
plus i'm helping Sara with Engin Camp tis yr,
so there'l be meetings and dry runs to attend as well..
which im not sure if i'l be able to attend alot of them, (or any, for that matter)
(cos i only have 6 days of leave, 5 of which would be for the camp..)
So i guess this 3 mths, i'l jus juggle my time all over..
I wanna keep myself busy with things,
find myself again, and yeah.. keep my mind preoccupied with things,
even if its jus watching dvds or Friends.. haha
Perhaps i'l even take up a course or learn something new.. hmm.
Bottomline is, I dont wanna waste my time bumming & stoning around with nothing to do..

One of my closest friends will be flying off on tuesday for grad trip, gone for a month..
guess i'l miss those times we spent..
another few friends would be going overseas as well, namely Mel Liping Calvin (& Jian? haa).
so i guess i wont be seeing them for sometime as well..
Yet another friend's gg back to HK on wed and probably staying there for the rest of the hols..
I still rmb, last yr, during this time after the exams, I went to catch The Phantom of the Opera..
This yr, I simply looked forward to after the exams last thurs (8 May),
and looked forward to spending time with 2 of my best friends Craig & Sara.
Thurs evening & fri was spent helping with moving out of Kuok..
while Sat was another great day out, first from Sheares hall, then to PS & Cathay..

Whether im gonna miss this semester anots, I dont know..
Well, definitely, i'm not gonna miss the lectures & modules (yuks =x)
But i know i WILL miss many other things..
But special thanks to the following people who made everything bearable:
(not in order of merit kae? haha)

The clique => Sam Kyrin Mel Calvin Liping Jian (always in lecture together..)
Sara Teo (our shopping at bugis! and for helping me so much, and tolerating my nonsense),
Craig (for the online disturbing and nudging and bantering, disappearing from lectures n tutorials, but yet always there somewhere..),
Weicheng (the occasional chat online as well..)
Roy (our occasional lunch kaki at Arts canteen on tuesday)
Elizabeth (who always dropped by via msn as well)
Ziqi (who was there no matter what, & always ready with alternative viewpoints which made me look at things differently and more cheerfully)
Weishan (whom i talked to here n there during the semester, and also my chui qi tong at times after my papers.. sorrie! haha)
Huixiang (whom i got to noe better since we took heavenly math together, & always sat behind him and his gang of hall friends..)
Y.Y. (whom i got to noe during the sem during heavenly math, though we hardly talked, til the semester ended.. haha. And thanks! for the tut stuffs! :) tink i'd be worse off if i didnt have them..)
Berlin (everything we had, I treasure them, alot.. :) )
Josephine (met her at CF last yr, but only started talking on 8March)
And Raynor Gan! would never forget his help rendered during the semester when i needed help as well.. and though we didnt exactly see each other often during the semester, he never hesitated to help me out..
and yea, Jasmine Loo, Jasmin and Marcus, though tis sem we hardly met at all, i'l nvr forget our superlong lunch last dec when we met to celebrate Jas Loo's bdae..
hm, for those whom i didnt list out, doesnt mean i forget them k..

hm okays, the end of a superrrlonngg post.. shall stop here i guess.
tmr will be the start of the hols (kinda more officially, since im gg back to work tmr! haha)

Happy Holidays everyone! =))

-Sirong- =)

2008-05-03T22:15:00.003+08:00

Before i know it, it's Saturday again.
Fluid Mechanics paper today..
Well, for a start, I totally didnt know how long was the paper.
Thought it was 2hrs jus like the rest.. It was 2.5hrs. haha
The questions brought me memories of my CA test. yuks =(

Well, couldnt have survived without "Friends" these few weeks..
It's my favourite show now, after Prison Break! haha

2 more papers to go..
Mechanics of Materials on Tuesday,
Heavenly Maths on Thursday..

And then it's back to work on the following monday already!

Times flies.. What a semester . . .

i still miss everything.. if only i could turn back the clock....
106 days ....

2008-04-28T22:27:00.003+08:00

Today . Feedback Controls.. Down. *sweat*

Done nothing all afternoon and night.. jus printed some papers n stuffs ,
time to start on Fluids & Mech. of Materials .
Have until Sat, but i dont wanna bang on the seemingly "lotsa time" .
Cuz it's nOt. Considering how much i have to do .

sighs..

Good Luck to Me :) *self pats on the back* .

hur hur hur .

Reach
by Gloria Estefan

Some dreams live on in time forever
Those dreams, you want with all your heart
And Ill do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line
What I hoped for at last would be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So Ill go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe
All the more that this dream will be mine

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be stronger
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach

If I could reach, higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
Im goona be stronger
From that one moment in my life
Im gonna be so much stronger yes I am
Know that Ive tried my very best
Id put my spirit to the test
If I could reach higher
If I could, if I could
If I could reach
Reach, Id reach, Id reach
Id reach Id reach so much higher
Be stronger

2008-04-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

My "feelings-meter" . the wave which i've been experiencing time and again. hahaha.. sth lame i guess.. exam stress? hur hur hur .

physics was over today.. another mod down. 4 more to go! sighs..

coming up, Monday 28th Apr : feedback. yuks..

gonna have to work work wwoorrrkkkk tmr!

no time to think of anything else, though sometimes i cant help it at all really..

jiayous!

jiayou jiayou jiayou :)

2008-04-25T14:24:00.002+08:00

In science library now.. the dunno-how-many times this week already.
at least 3times? haha =x
Exams exams exams.. sighs.

Times really fliieeesss! Before i know it, 1week has come and gone! now its Friday alrdy..
Thank goodness there were the midterms tests and CA tests along the way,
(not that i did superly well)
but still, it forced me to study and at least do something for the module..
though its still A L O T of work to do and catch up now.. =x
like prioritising what comes first and all..

hur hur hur .

Tmr is my first paper.. PC1432 (physics2) at 0900hrs,
Feedback Control is on Monday at 0900hrs as well..
argghhh. dun like 9am papers, cos of the traffic conditions (especially on weekdays)..

take care, continuing striving on :)

2008-04-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

that particular feeling . . . .

have experienced it dunno hOw many times this semester already............

sigh.

2008-04-19T20:07:00.004+08:00

The Forbidden Kingdom! It's finally here! been waiting and waiting for it to come..

had Design test today.. wasnt exactly too good i guess. sighs.. =X
wonder how i will do for it..

now to concentrate on the remaining 5 papers..

coming up, 26th April : Physics II. 9am

have to plan out my time real carefully and balance everything..

sigh.. why .

2008-04-18T09:54:00.006+08:00

hokays. havent touched this blog for like . super long? sheesh.. haha. been a busy busy week.

well, not busy as in sooo busy with work, but still.. busy. somehow..

tmr's the test for Design module ME2101. worth 75%! hmm.. somehow, i dun feel like studying now alrdy.. and not like i am superly well prepared for my exams this time.. sighz. I wonder how i will do this semester. =(

sometimes, some things that u say at the moment seems just fine,
but actually they're not.
and i just regret it when a later time comes...

2008-04-09T23:11:00.006+08:00

hmm, its been a long wednesday.. started lessons at 10, then had lecture from 10-1, 2 to about 3+. and then consultation with Sam's Feedback tutor.. hm tat guy's not bad. quite clear in his explanations, and he's very patient! hmm..

got back my fluids test paper today =( sighs.

today's the 9th april.. first paper on 26th.
Not many days left..
Not forgetting, next Wed with MOM test, and Design CA on Sat, worth 75% !!

sheesh..

zzzzzzzzz

2008-04-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

tired tired tired .

sighs . how i wish . . . . .

2008-04-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

2 more days to Fluids Quiz . .
sheesh :(
feel so dead man 0.O

2008-03-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

stressed..

superly worried for this thursday's quiz . sighz =X

equations are turning into stars in my eyes .

it's friday already..

2008-03-28T14:45:00.011+08:00

hm, been trying to keep myself busy..
there's so much things to do
but so moodless

This morning, had a long drive to sch, thanx to jams everywhere around my house area.
Braddell Rd jam, outside RI also jam, becos of a chokepoint at Lornie Rd

At Supersnacks now in PGP.
Got out a draft of our Sun homework for monday's submission
Coming to school tmr to discuss with Zi Qi & Sir Hong (and maybe Terence if he can make it).
"Bleeding Love" has been playing countless times on power98..
Everytime i hear it, brings back mixed feelings & thoughts..
Am quite crazy bout tis song now, its so nicely played & arranged & all :)
& the bass is greatt!

trying to work out a study plan now, and hopefully, FOLLOW it..
arghhh *bang wall*

i still think of those days..
70 & 14 days

the final countdown

2008-03-26T20:13:00.005+08:00

Exactly 4 more weeks to final exam.
First paper starts on 26 April.

Meanwhile, still have all these coming up:
Fluids Quiz next thurs 3 Apr
M.O.M. quiz on 13Apr tat week, &
Design module test on 19Apr.

Not forgetting Sun homework due next monday 31st Mar,
and Proj report due 7Apr.

Final exam papers on 26th & 28th Apr and 3rd 6th and 8th May.

Take care :)
Dun give up.. Look ahead & strive on..
U can do it de =)

2008-03-25T20:48:00.002+08:00

Been a long tiring day..
Felt so disoriented still.
And s a d .

I still cant bear to call it quits.
But the ball's not in my court anymore..

Whatever the outcome is in the end, (if there is one)
Please do take good care of yourself.
I dont want to see u get hurt again by the same thing.

Take Care..

disbelief

2008-03-24T21:00:00.014+08:00

This really sucked. As in, really S-U-C-K-E-D.

Yeah, I never expected things to end this way. Definitely not.
That had never occurred to me all these while.
I tried, I really did. Up til the very last moment.
I still tried to help you see light.
I tried to salvage whatever that was damaged.
I thought that talking would clear things up. And settle things better.

Well, even as a friend, I think it was only right to, at the very very least, make some time to talk about everything. In person. i.e. A proper chat.
I think I deserve that from you, at the very least.
Consider it the most basic form of respect for someone who really genuinely cared.
Or if that isnt significant at all, at the very least, for a f-r-i-e-n-d now.
Not this.
You are able to find time to do other things still. Despite a busy schedule.
So is it really so difficult to set aside some time to talk to somebody who really cared all these while? Even if it might mean jus one more time?

Yeah, jus saying to forget about it all and pretend nothing ever happened.
Its easy to say.
And i cant believe you actually tell that to me.

Thanks for walking out of my life in this way.
It was the very LAST thing I would have expected to happen.
In fact, I never even expected it.
nOt from you.

2008-03-23T12:53:00.007+08:00

Just did something drastic. Never thought i would ever do that..
approx 986 msges.

The feeling of being ignored sucks. Like totally.

Is it really the end of everything?

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Saturday

went to see the doc ytd morning as well, to check out my left eye. Sheesh, even eyes can hav abrasions which are bad. luckily i went to get it checked out early and got some medicine for it.. afternoon went back to sch awhile. It started pouring like mad when we left school..

Yesterday's was Kyrin's bdae.. haha. So happy to see her so happy.. its her 21st! Sam got a cake in the shape of a key and her photo on it. Wonder how they'r gonna cut that cake with her photo on it. hehehe! reached home bout 10.40pm yesterday. just din feel like doing anything already. slept by 11.30pm.. and today? i woke at 10+! one of the rare times i can sleep til so late.. hur hur .

yeah, tis few days i keep blogging. lots and lots on my mind.. =(

l o s t . a b s o l u t e l y .

2008-03-22T08:30:00.005+08:00

Yeah, talk about a million and a zillion thoughts.. Some many weeks ago, things were all up and running smoothly. And then, suddenly everything just seems to come down, as if its a curtain closing upon a show and signifying the end of everything. I dunno, cant say i didnt try my best for everything. I tried, I really did..

I guess its time i channel some of my energy on other things, such as projects, catching up on lagging school work, & just being there for another friend..
yeah, sometimes trying to help n being concerned might turn out to be harmful since ultimately, it could be perceived by others to be intrusive, meddlesome, or as most singaporeans might put it, kay-poh-ism.. but I guess its either I get overworried bout this & leave a friend in the lurch, or I heck these potential comments & be just sincere abt everything. I choose to choose the latter. I know how it feels like when one really wants to talk to someone, but there's just no one to talk to and confide in, and everything is just kept within instead..

I think I reali suck at helping ppl sometimes.. Just am unsure when i should or should not come in . hmm..

But I really do mean to just be there for someone, and listen, talk, anything..

Take Care :)

Good Friday

2008-03-21T17:45:00.006+08:00

It's Good Friday today.. A public holiday. Mel Liping Jian and the gang all are supposed to be at sentosa today. but i cant join them, cos i hav to come back to sch to work on my Heavenly Math project. (yeah, am in sch now.. at 5.48pm. haa) .

The sun was initially great in the morning, but in the afternoon, it started to pour again, before being dry again now.. sigh. i shld have captured the ring shadow in the morning irregardless of the time since the weather is so unpredictable. Regretz.. Ok, tmr, i shall not make the same mistake. Catch the sun while it can..

Am with Sir Hong and ZiQi now in sch.. with donuts, bread, m&ms and our laptops with us.. Zzz . We wont be having any holidays for the coming 2weeks, with a deadline each week =X

At the crossroads. Its either make it or break it now..
A million thoughts run through my mind every now and then throughout these days.
I really tried..

reflections at bishan stadium..

2008-03-18T19:19:00.012+08:00

Just had a short but tiring jog just now.. had a good workout with afew rounds around the track at bishan stadium, and then overworking my stomach n arms with crunches and pushups.. im gonna wake up with a cramped stomach tmr.

Relationships. Well, things do really work in strange ways sometimes. Just now after school, was talking with marcus, and found out that he and Jasmin are now attached, together. It started off as a joking jesting session which he started it all, but when my turn came to "poke" at him, the answer came back was an initial surprise to me. haha.. Hm, the first thoughts that went through my mind was pretty much mixed, and subsequently, more thoughts. But I am really happy for the both of them! =) I hope that they will both stay happy together.. My best wishes to them both :)

hm, today was a pretty dry day. The best time was lunchtime.. sheesh. I ate a heck of a lot of food at arts canteen. I was hungry, was not exactly veerrrryyyy hungry. But well, just eat. Went back to engin to help sara with manning the booth for FOP councillor recruitment.. had a good chat with YK and Jemuel too :) nice guys..

Been feeling extremely bad and guilty for the past 3days.

I jus want to understand the situation better first..

open house . .

2008-03-15T22:49:00.004+08:00

hm, a pretty long week for me. Tiring, lots of work, and 2 labs! sheesh =X
times-wise, well, there were both ups and downs.
When it was down, it was really down.
But when it was up-times, it turned out well.

Was back in school for open house today. Pretty interesting, considering I was pretty much lost at how to approach potential freshies to get them to sign up for engin camp! =X especially the girls..
And so, I made myself useful by keying into the laptop the particulars as and when the names n details came in, so that I can save the time for whoever who's in charge of consolidating the names.
(well, at least save the time of typing 50+names. haha)
there came a time where we had an overload of ppl at the booth, and the nussu guy had to give us kind warnings time and again. And so, we had to stagger our ppl who stayed at the booths to "attract" ppl.

haha. Kuok Foundation house rooms seem so much nicer than PGP ones! well, at least, for my fren's room =) haha
Makes me wanna stay in one of the rooms, even if it's just for 1 semester.

2008-03-11T18:46:00.004+08:00

Had a long day yesterday.. 9-10 lecture, 12-2 lecture, 2-4+ lab, 4+ to 6.30 vivo & Queensway shopping centre (to collect the camp comm jerseys), 6.30-7.45pm Lecture. Long LONG day.....

and certainly not made any better. Thought that with a sleep, it'd pass.
But no. Still feel like s-h-i-t today.

the past week

2008-03-08T21:50:00.013+08:00

hm, okay, one week has passed.. just like that. yeah, time is really flying, i tink i keep saying that. haha.. this past week has been rather eventful. Well, not in the sense of many many events, but along the way, with numerous minute things in the days, and experiences which held me down, lifted me up, and also things that got me thinking.

Monday was a studying day as well as a day filled with lots of thoughts.. And well, tuesday was spent busy mugging and preparing for the tests on wednesday. I had 2 tests on wednesday by the way, so it did seem crazy that after school after studying all afternoon with sara, i wasnt headed home yet, but to get, and give, something else to someone else :) Well, time is for us to balance.. yeah, it might sound crazy since i had not 1 but 2 tests the next day, but when planned wisely, the time wouldnt be actually considered a waste. The "rocks" are most important in our lives, and they deserve sacrifices :) well, most of the time..

Wednesday, the day of the 2 tests.

Thursday, well, I spent the break doing some studying, then after lunch and lecture, headed out to IMM to buy Weishan's bdae present, and also to recce for items prices in Giant for the engin camp budget planning. While searching for Weishan's present, couldnt help but notice another item which was super attractive, and without much of a second thought, i decided to buy it as another Good Luck gift. Met up with Dawn and Tsinli and afew others at Weishan's house, and had a good catching up time.. after talking to Tsinli, some things did come to my mind and set me pondering.

Friday was a short day, with onli one lecture from 9-10am, after which met with Kyin to study tog while waiting for Sam, then awaiting the time for the FSAE Centennial 4 (C4) car official launch and unveiling. The day started off filled with anticipation and well-wishing, from which afew hours later, it turned to abit of worry, and then in the midst of laughing non-stop @ "Friends" on kyrin's laptop, the feeling of some reservations mixed in for the rest of the day. Made a last minute decision to head for a jog at east coast park, but instead, I just sat at the breakwater for some time. to relax, do some thinking and reflections. Yeah, well, maybe its called emo-ing or withdrawal instead, rather than thinking/reflections. whatever.. i dont care.
The last time i went there was when i felt reali reali hurt by something else.. yeah, guys do have feelings too.

Today, well, was dead tired cos i slept very late last night, so i woke up late. Had a slow day, and in the midst of everything, went to cut my hair, send my car for washing. ended with dinner at tpy with my family, and yeah, now, online again.. There are some things which i really really wish to accomplish and settle this weekend, but I guess I'm nowhere near accomplishing it. Perhaps not this weekend i guess.

Here's 3 photos i took of C4 yesterday:

08 March 08,
2305 hrs

recess week is coming to an end

2008-03-01T22:46:00.008+08:00

Time reali flies, zooms, speeds, whatever.. we shld have a speed camera to catch time when it speeds too! okk, a lame attempt at being lame.. haha =X

anywaes, 1wk has flown by.. Just last sat, the midterm break had jus started. It seems like lots of time to work and relax. Today, it is left one more day before school resumes again, and midterm tests descends upon us for next week.. The panic button has been pressed, but i still have lots to do! hm, balancing time is very impt.. between work and play.

Will be having Feedback Control and Physics II quizzes on Wednesday at 12nn and 6pm respectively.. Mechanics of materials Quiz will be from 5-15 March online.. Open House will be on 15-16 March.. and not forgetting, other things to focus and do too :)

hm, i think i can reali throw away all my fears and worries ler.. well, i SHOULD. Its very tiring on myself, and i know it can get quite sian diao on others' part too.. when i worry and think too much, and inadvertantly, over-read (incorrectly) in between the lines, so i shld learn to be MORE optimistic, and nOt worry too much unnecessarily. Despite having some small bouts of worries and uncertainties, mixed with anticipation for the past 3days, it has turned out tat all that worries were uncalled for, cos today turned out well, and i think it was a pretty good day today, I'm so very happy and relieved now :)

and i love the sweets =P

2008-02-28T14:56:00.004+08:00

Wednesday:

Went to school to study with Weishan today.. have not seen her in ages, since the first wk of school. Had some catching up time as well as webcasting time.. Reached home, continued with some webcasts, talking, and just before i slept, had a piece of news which brightened me up :) yayy.

Today:
Heard the news just now in which one individual questioned all the whys and how-did-it-happen and all. Why was there a lapse in security? Why was it that the public wasnt told immediately? why this why that. Damn irritating.. Perhaps certain individuals could look into the situation more indepth before questioning your own country's security. It has proven to be effective and strong all these years. Just because of one incident, and this individual sounds as if he has had YEARS of experience of dealing with superb security. No doubt, there could have been a lapse somewhere, somehow. However, i hope the general public doesnt be too quick in judge the security forces in Singapore negatively.

I had intended to go to school today, but somehow, after i woke up, i didnt feel like doing so, and i stayed on at home. Spent the time webcasting n surfing online. Am super ssuupppeerrrr duper worried now again. very very very veryyyy worried.. :(
I hope nothing's wrong :(

3.24pm

stoning at 2250hrs . . . zzzz

2008-02-26T22:45:00.005+08:00

A slowww day..

A slow slow s l o w w day in sch.. fell asleep while watching webcasts. zzzzz..

but the atmosphere in YIH study room was pretty fine. Jus need to take more concentration pills! =.=

day ended on a happy note! :)

Jus a random post,
thanx alot alot to Sara Kyrin Sam Ben for their concern all these while.. however busy they are, they'v never failed to be at my side, or jus a call/sms away. :) thanx for putting up with my bitching n complaints, and yeah, when i was down last time, for listening to me n holding me up.. Sara also.. alot of time listening to my ranting and worries, and reassuring me and all :)

2008-02-25T17:23:00.003+08:00

s m i l e :)

Maybe i did the right thing, maybe i didnt.. In deciding to speak out straightforwardly. i reali don't know at this juncture. I glad that things are as it was still :) and hopefully, getting stronger.

Not at a fast forwarded speed of course :)

smile :)

signed off,
2345 hrs

2008-02-24T10:20:00.002+08:00

haha here's some publicity for our Engin Camp tis yr! :)

hm, i just saw the following on Benny's blog, which also made me quite sad..
Here's the extract which Benny took :

"They say, ‘time and tide wait for no man’. How true this is. Today is New Year’s Eve already. The end of one and the beginning of another. It hurts to realize that this New Year will begin without you.

I caught ma sobbing quietly in your room just now. She misses you a lot. She is as heart broken as every mother can be when faced with the death of a child. I did not disturb her because I know she was basking in the memories that she has of you and the moments that you both shared.

I had imagined her recalling the day when she gave birth to you……recalling your first steps……your first words…..your first day in school and all the little things that you had done for her. The pain in the room was overwhelming. I don’t know what to do or say to her. I reckon she has to come to terms with your departure on her own. Only then can she find peace with this harsh reality. I left her to grief alone in your room.

...

There is a particular thing that was bothering me for sometime. I remembered that day when you were leaving, you called me from the airport asking me whether I wanted any cologne from DFS. I had hastily blurted out a few trying to get off the line and back to work. Little did I realize that would be the last time I will ever hear your voice again…..I remembered vividly how the conversation had gone.

(Xiang): Harlow……eh Ghor, I am at the airport, you wan to buy any perfume from DFS anot?

(Me): Erm…..…ok! You help me buy XXX and XXX……you got enough money a not??

(Xiang): Got.

(Me): ok.

(Xiang): Eh izzit better to buy on the way back?

(Me): Err...…..dun noe leh….I think so lah! (impatient)

(Xiang): Ok lor, I’ll call you again when I am back.

(Me): Ok Bye!

(Xiang): Bye!

That was it. That was the last conversation. It was brief…..too brief.

I feel sorry I din even take a minute off to ask you to be careful and to take care…..I was myopic …..I can’t see beyond myself sometimes. It had dawn on me that I was too engrossed in my own world to appreciate the people around me - the people dearest to a person. Most of the time I had taken you for granted. I was not aware of what was going on in your life. How you were doing in school? Are you dating anyone? What are your plans when you graduate? I wished I had made an effort to get to know you...…Its too late, I had squandered the time away...…can never make up for it again. Somehow my shoulders feel heavy with the burden of regret.

I guess we have to pick ourselves up from here. Tomorrow is a new start for us – a new year. We will try to live life as you had mastered so meaningfully. We will treasure the memories of you and the people/things you left behind. You don’t have to worry about pa and ma because I’ll be around to take care of things. We want you to rest. Save a good spot for us in heaven. We will join you soon. Till we meet again… its goodbye for now.

Take care my brother.

Brothers Forever"

hm, it's reali sad seeing this.. And yeah, as Benny said, if i nvr say it out, at least i'v penned it down.. I love u Mum Dad & sis! & of course my great best friends, and yeah, one more person. Though i'v never said those 3 words before to u.. I shld really stop worrying for nothing.. shucks. nerves are too jumpy ler ..

Chill chill c h i l l . . .

another yr older

2008-02-23T19:36:00.005+08:00

hm, i've jus turned 24 2days ago.. thanx to my frens who made it reali enjoyable for me! Thanx to Berlin who wished me first, and during in the day, other frens also wished me. Got a farney keychain from Sara & Kenneth, which.. well, its gonna make me think even more :P with the names flipped and reading differently.. thanx to Sara Kenneth Marcus JasminSeow, and most importantly not forgetting Sam Kyrin Mel Lucas Liping Jian Calvin Craig who also celebrated with me at The Glass House! =) it was reali reali enjoyable, and yes.. getting a preview of my turn next to stand on the chair in front of the whole crowd is quite scary actuali.. haha, sorriee.. i had to try to get u to come :P

Friday was a pretty relaxing day, with onli a 1hr lect from 9-10am..
and yes, it was great getting to see ya once again after 4 days .. though it was late, i didnt mind.. not at all.. :)

when u are crazy bout someone, the world just revolves around the same few things from then on . . . :) I've never been happier :) I hope my intepretation is correct, and I hope things will move on to be even better..

Reflections

2008-02-21T11:25:00.003+08:00

haha.. reflections on tis day when i turn 24.. hmms . many many things im thinking thru, and would like to say too.. haha.

thanx for the sms at exactly 12am :) its not early. its exactly at 12am today :) haha!

-1130hrs-

2008-02-20T23:44:00.001+08:00

i need to learn to control, control, control..

c o n t r o l ..

:)

balance

2008-02-18T21:08:00.004+08:00

Mid Term breakk is coming soon. 1wk == 7days, but doesnt mean its alot.. not forgetting i have lots to catch up on.

Feedback Controls : 2 x tutorials + webcasts!
Fluid Mechanics II: 4 x tutorials
ME2101 Design : 1 x tutorial starting tis wk
Mech of materials : 2 x tutorials + 1x webcast from CNY
Physics IIE : 2 x tutorials
HEavenly Maths : 1 x tutorial + webcasts!

and of course, PhysicsII and Feedback Midterm tests both on 5 March =X

sheesh.. my turn to say tis ler.. i need to balance balance b a l a n c e.

ahaha.. yeaa. i copied the picture. lols! :)

2008-02-17T21:35:00.003+08:00

time seems to past sOO fast! =X

"I Just Called To Say I Love You"

No New Year's Day to celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here's just another ordinary day

No April rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding Saturday within the month of June
But what it is, is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer's high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies

No Libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is, though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
of my heart

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
baby of my heart

:)

2008-02-17T20:09:00.005+08:00

Saw this video of the SAF Band in action.. though the picture is abit lagging about 1 count from the music itself.. hm, reminds me of my band days. sometimes i do wish i was back in the Band once again.. hmm :)for those who'd been thru the commissioning parade, perhaps the first song would bring back some memories for u! :)

:)

2008-02-14T10:38:00.016+08:00

Had a super nice Monday, reali reali enjoyed myself.. It then led me to a long thinking time while on the drive back home, which then led me to my decision :) THANKS Raynor! for taking the time to help me settle the picture which i needed to help to change to black-and-white urgently, all because i lacked the skills and software to do so myself, and even though I headed to the engin PC cluster to checkout the computers to see if they had photoshop installed, they didnt.. Thanx for the help despite the superly duperly duperlyy shooorrrttt notice.. I really do appreciate it alot alot.. Thanx lots bro! :)

It was a heart-thumping-cum-popping out time on tuesday night :) haha.. nearly had a "heart attack".. but im so glad it went fine :) thanku :)

Wednesday, well, a loonngg day.. shagged out, totally. but was like wide awake at 11pm+ :p which is actuali more like sleeping time! zzzz . haha

Thursday: H a p p y V a l e n t i n e s ' D a y ! :) :)

There are many things that i wan to say, and would love to do :) But i'm scared that i will somehow be held back by fears and worries, and then inadvertently screw things up without knowing.. I hope that what i'm doing, and have been doing, is right :) I reali hope so..

Perhaps its cos of things that have happened in the past -- flashbacks. Not the fear of getting into something, but rather, worries of doing something wrong, sth which might turn the tables upside down instead, and cause the curtains to come down..

But i just wanna say this with all my heart:

I want to, and will, do my best for tis all :)

*ponders

2008-02-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

How do u tell someone how u reali really feel about the person? Now that all these while, your focus has just been on her, and u just wan to do everything for her, but yet, u're afraid of accidentally pulling the curtains down on everything. Dilemna..

I care. I really do.. :)

2008-02-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

haha.. an exciting saturday. Woke up and was on my toes at home from 8 9+.. prep for afew friends coming over to my place for a small gathering. Its the first time im playing host, so was kinda nervous. haha.. Sam also reminded me to DO my tutorials n stuffs! haha.. yeah, i shld. sigh.. with the proj deadlines approaching. grrr.. tat lasted til bout almost 3pm.. After that, went over to Daniel's house for a gathering with the fellow VA officers. hahaha.. was damn fun there with the rest of the guys :)

Came home for dinner with my family. Been online since 8.45pm.

well, searching for ideas :)

It's Saturday! :) So fast, 3 days have passed.. lol :)

sloww friday

2008-02-08T14:17:00.000+08:00

River Hongbao was nice.. though very very crowded.
And i missed the fireworks.. bleahz.

thought i lost my thumbdrive,
but the blur toot in me actually forgot to remove it from my pants i wore to sch on monday, so my thumbdrive went swimming.. thanx goodness it still seems fine and undamaged..
(2250hrs)

A slow friday.

Feels so slack, and i dont wanna do anything else but slack.
but looking at the amount of work i have to get done,

plus some non-school-related job to do too :)

I shouldnt slack.
not too much anyways..
(1417hrs)

Its Friday already :)

C N Y !!

2008-02-07T11:44:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to one and all! =) 新年快乐！！ =)

haha so fast.. day 1 already. hmm.. the start of a looonnng wkend.. well, actuali it started yesterday. hehe. but not forgetting all the tutorials and webcasts that i hav to catch up! ..

I had a great tuesday evening.. I really reallly had an enjoyable time :)

2 more days and counting :)
i'm missing the times already .

Lazy weekend/sunday

2008-02-03T22:21:00.001+08:00

A lazy weekend. Slept late on friday night =P

Saturday: woke early, and was at the east side for a moment =P wouldnt say tat it was a wasted trip, though it more or less became a round trip =p haha.before i ended up in sch to get Sara and head to West Mall to discuss our design proj with Craig as well. Sara wasnt feeling well, so since it was all in the west anyways, decided it was alright to get sara before headed to West Mall. Kenneth! (if u r reading tis, u better appreciate it.. hehe). ur gf's my good fren! lol. Spent the afternn at home after we were done. Prep some stuffs for cny. Own family reunion dinner at home =)
Slept very late again, cos i was online =P

Today, woke late! at 10.30am! cant believe myself.. went out for brunch and some shopping at thomson ntuc for drinks n stuffs for cny. If not my frens will have to self supply water.. hehe. Spent a whole afternn and evening trying to figure out this lab report called Frequency Response. grrr.. its not responding to my frustrations with it definitely. heh. & of course, online again =) So the time was pretty well-spent and enjoyable.

haha..saw this on Berlin's blog and tried it out. Pretty truee for me i think . lol.. always felt that quality time together will be the most important of all. Doesnt have to be for a long time like hours. As long as keeping in touch, and spending quality time. Re-attaching one of my favourite stories again. Its called "A Great Reminder".

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	12
Acts of Service:	8
Physical Touch:	7
Words of Affirmation:	2
Receiving Gifts:	1

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A Great Reminder -

A philosophy professor stood before his class. He had some items on the table in front of him. When class began, he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks about 2" in diameter.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. Then the professor picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the rocks. He then asked the students if the jar was full. Again they agreed that it was. When the professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar the students laughed. The sand, of course, filled in everything else.

When pouring everything out and reversing the order of filling the jar by putting the sand into the jar first, there was no room for all the pebbles and rocks, even when shaking the jar.

"Now," said the professor, holding up the jar, "I want you to recognize that this is your life. The rocks are the important things in your life, your family, your partner, your health, your children - anything that is so important to you that, if it were lost, you would be nearly destroyed. The pebbles are the other things in your life that matter, your job, your house, your car. The sand is just that... the small stuff. The order of filling the jar applies the same way to your life. If you spend all your energy and time on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. So pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Be with your family.... play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out on a date..... dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first.... the things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

2008-01-31T23:18:00.001+08:00

wonders .

the past week . . .

2008-01-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

The past week has been good.. keeping busy with school, slacking, and chatting and meeting a new fren.. ( thanx! =)) ) seems to be a blessing as it came to me during a downtime, and i feel like i've been picked up once again in the past 11 days. Relief. Thank you very much =))

Time to do some sorting out of my timetable and stuffs, and to re-discipline myself. Have to juggle projects, tutorials, my own training/exercising and activities with some friends so that i do not overlook any of these large "stones" in my life.. They'r impt to me and no matter what, i'l make time for these. Even if it might just be for an hour or 2 for a simple meal or meetup. Such times are meant to be treasured. Its worth squeezing out time for :)

Went to 3 places yesterday to recce positions for taking of the sunset photos. Kent Ridge Park, rooftop of EA blk and West Coast Park. The barriers at WCP have been taken off, and now it is even nicer than before. The feeling of walking alongside the sea might be slightly different from at ECP since one has the beach and sand while the former is mainly grass, it still has a pretty nice view out to sea. I think i shld take out time to hav a run there.

February is coming, and so is Chinese New Year. One more week.. fast fast. Before we know it, the design project is due on 18 Feb. Falling in love with motors and batteries. yah right.

an "xtra" summons

2008-01-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Went to the AXS machine near my house tis morning to pay for the $20 fine i got for 'overstaying' at the carpark at Serangoon Gardens on 10 Jan, and i was shocked to see that i had another summons, $30! for that on 14 Jan. but that day, I was with my friend, and at Prinsep street, my coupon was all torn correctly.. so where did it come from? didnt receive any ticket from them on my windscreen, so am very surprised to see that $30 fine in my account under my car plate. Luckily i looked before i selected "pay all". Trying to file an appeal now to get it checked out. bleahh

had a pretty nice day, thouugh im once again remineded of how lectures can put me to sleep, or at least, make my mind exercise and "run off" ie lose concentration. Ok, that was a lame attempt at being lame.

Another 4 hours break tmr from 12-4pm. Just to wait for a 1hr lecture from 4-5pm.
Damn >.<

2008-01-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

1 week's gone. Just like that.. reminds me of how fast time can be once again. Back in dec during my VA days, the weeks seemed to pass abit slower as compared to that during school time. And of course, with more enjoyment and less "headaches".

Thursday, caught up with Craig (FINALLY!). Had lunch with him and Roy at the Ginza market food centre, our standard chicken rice. And then stoned in his room, before i decided to head back home for a rest n bath before back to school at 6pm again for Heavenly MAths lecture.

Friday: 9-10am lecture. Well, to be precise, 9-9.45am lecture. After which, Sam Kyrin Mel Jian and I went to Ginza for breakfast, and then headed to Clementi bookstore to buy the textbook for Feedback Control. Had an afternoon free then. Met up with the VA guys as well. Good catching up time =)

Saturday. Was online all day. Basically just stoned and relaxed at home. Surfed net. And had a "great" time sorting out my tutorial timetable.

Today:
I was supposed to go cycling with Sara, but she wasnt feeling well. Wanted her to rest at home instead, but she wanted to come out still, so we went to Ikea for our "chapalang" breakfast. Before that, had a brief meet with Berlin as well =)
SAra and I had a good chat during tat time. She bought a laptop support with cushion, and i almost psycho-ed her to buy a stand for her printer! hehe =P And I felt abit better after opening up my thoughts.. Went to cut my hair in the afternoon as well.

Though it still stings even though it has been 1week now, but still. Life goes on. I dont want to let one sentence drag me down with such disappointment for so long. Its simply not worth it anymore. Up till now, I still cant believe those words that were said. Yeah, they were small simple words, and it is afterall a minute issue. And yes, it will seem like i am a bickering childish small boy. Perhaps its just a gender thing, but then again, that doesnt seem to make sense because the current situation obviously is proving that gender differences is nOt to be the case. Perhaps it is just me. Yes, I have put myself in the shoes and thought about it, for days. From the male-female point of views even. To be fair, there have been good times spent too.. But now I am jus so disappointed that the amount of sensitivity, considerations, effort which i'd put in all these while towards the friendship, and sensitivity towards one's feelings, to build up a trusted friendship, on normal times as well as during that difficult time, seemed to be all simply gone to naught. What i showed as concern, became apparently "overwhelming". Even though i'd hardly called, or done much of other things to indicate making a move. Other than wanting to help ensure the safety of the individual. And do something. As compared to what certain others have done, I'm sure it would be more "guilty" of that than i was. But well, i dont want to compare things anymore.From that moment on, things changed. I lost my feelings, my trust, and beliefs that showing sensitivy to one's thoughts and feelings actually is worth doing. I have nothing to say at all. I'm dumbfounded. Totally.

I also watched "Step Up" during the afternoon. Am super impressed by the movie as well as the cool dance moves! makes me wanna take up something new to learn.. hahaha. and of course, reminds me of my Rag dance days in 2006! Love u all fellow raggers. Though i think i've distanced abit over the months.. but I still rmb those days n the fun n all that we had =)

school restarts

2008-01-16T19:36:00.002+08:00

Life has to go on, doesnt it? No matter what we face along the way. The past few days, school has restarted. Today it's already day3, wednesday. Before we know it, its the weekend again, and 1 week of school will be gone. Just like that. The past few days were pretty uneventful, the norm. Jus like it was in last semester.

Well, AlmOSt.

These few days, jus been keeping myself busy and getting over that disappointment. With some friends in school, talking mostly with Raynor, Craig, Sara, Faith, Beth, Zhihua, plus amongst afew more others whom i also ran into in lecture today -- the old friends, Weicheng, Lenny, Edmund, Gee Hoe, Michelle. Was very nice too of Liping and Michelle to have gotten a little something for me from overseas. (during the hols, Liping went to the US while Michelle went back to HK for 3wks).. Also, each day exploring through IVLE, searching for notes to print, and some net surfing, and then sleep.

Thursday is approaching.

a song which got me re-hooked once again..

2008-01-13T12:39:00.000+08:00

A song which got me re-hooked once again afew days ago. Follow your heart. Like one of the books which Andrew Matthews wrote as well. Sometimes its good to simply follow your heart. Open up and not let things boil up within you. This is to prevent "implosion", so to speak.

sigh. mood's flipped upside down again.

Stay The Same -- Joey Mcintyre

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

My blog -- A little Disclaimer .

2008-01-09T19:41:00.001+08:00

hm, I think im finally making full use of my blog here. haha..

A little disclaimer to all:
words and content listed are not supposed to offend anyone. They'r just purely my thoughts and feelings which sometimes i might find somewhat hard to express, or simply jus to write it out on a place. Anytime, anywhere, when it hits me and i know of how to express it out.

2008-01-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

Many a times these days go past without me wondering. Words cant describe how much of a "sian-ness" -- a downed feeling -- i feel now, been feeling for the past few days. Yes, it might seem to be a small incident to some, since i wasnt there. But that surprise and shock, how much i thought about it since. How i wished i was there. Perhaps things would have been different. Maybe i could have done something to look out, and it would have been averted. Alot of maybes. All because i fell sick and i couldnt make it. Many things, i want to ask more about, to say more, but i dont dare to. I am afraid that i might ask or say something wrong. Or something that might trigger off something else. So i don't know what else i can or should do. Except keep quiet. And being very careful abt wat i say or do.

All i can do now, and am doing, is pray. That everything is alright now. That your confidence has returned, slowly but returning. That you will recover soon. And your cheer will return to as it was before. The laugh, the jestering, the "kah-jiao-ing". Everything. There's only one way i can help u when school starts. And I hope u will allow me to. Its the least I can do.. Even if its simply just as a fren, a 'neighbour'. =)

I know that sometimes, i really am bad at showing my concern and thoughts.
But I care. I really do.

lots and lots of thinking

2008-01-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder: is it really good to talk to someone about personal things which are on your mind? i mean, confiding in someone, will help you to speak out your mind, probably have another perception presented to you, all the while, for you to keep ur feelings in check, and calming yourself down. but yet again, it gives the other person a certain impression, and imprint a mindset on that person. Not a very positive way, since u never know what that person thinks, or what he might tell others. But then again, u trust your friends. Speaking out is a good way? or not? hmmm..

2008-01-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

I just want the day to end ..... sigh . =(

As the saying goes, 跳进黄河也洗不清。 sometimes, when u try to wash off things, they dun exactly work out fine. I can only hope that there's enough trust all these while.

要说的我都说出口了。。只希望我们的友谊没受影响，而能够回原来那样。。

2008-01-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

Im sorry to all those whom i've offended along the way, knowingly or unknowingly. Been selfish in my thinking sometimes, i know. Regret having thoughts, but is apologising good enough? Caring about something or someone, is there such a thing as caring too much? when things dont exactly seem the way it is, and you have the initial unhappy thoughts, and you voice it out to someone, and then you decide to let it go as a small matter, is it wrong to feel this way too? Is it wrong to voice it out? or just keep it within yourself and let it pass? Sometimes i wish that my brain doesnt think at all, and that i wouldnt have to think of things. period.

Mixed feelings, all come together. Not a good feeling to have at all. Think i should attend a feeling-management course, so that i dont think too much, and curb some of the mood swings tat i experienced during this difficult time of falling sick and various other events. I can only say that im only human being, and I make mistakes, have my flaws, jus like everyone else do in other aspects perhaps.

A New Chapter begins

2008-01-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year! and goodbye to yr2007.. it has definitely been another interesting year, esp since in Uni, as well as having vacation attachment during the months from May-Aug and Dec07-Jan08. Many things hav happened, the good times, the bad times. WEll, that's life, isnt it? All of us have our fair share of ups and downs. Some downs are really downs, but we have to overcome those to move on, and make life interesting, enjoyable and bearable. New year's eve, had a ball of a time in camp, after a run in the morning with everyone else (and me suffering of course), a small celebration in the mess, and then walked around with Raynor and Eugene Tay at Sim Lim searching for an external harddisk. Raynor and Eugene kindly came with me cuz i was so blur n unsure of wat the heck is a firewire. Well, I finally saw what it was and what it looked like, but cost-wise, well..it aint too cheap. haha.. but 500GB, it shld be sufficient for me for sometime to come. Spent the evening out for dinner and Warlords at Cathay and walking around before heading home. Along the way home, saw throngs of ppl all over the place, and padang had ppl sitting down occupying the best seats, waiting for 12am to come, and the fireworks to burst.. 1 Jan was pretty alright, spent the day at home, and also chatting with Faith, talking abt many things, modules, games! haha.. and of cos, headaching abt modules as well.. sigh. ITs the time of the sem again. 2 most headache-y times of the semesters: (1) during exam times! and (2) the time of bidding for modules. One might think it is quite simple, cuz its jus simply bidding for modules, choosing wat we want, and tat's it. But if we really look at the situation, there's various factors to consider. Bid points, popularity, and especially, whether there were exam and lecture clashes. Right now, i still hope to be able to take Science of Music, but looking at the past bid points, i can only cross my fingers and hope. if not, my backup plans have to kick into action. haha.

2 Jan (Wednesday):
was on half day leave today, and met with Jasmin, Jasmine and Marcus for a belated celebration for Jasmine's bdae. Went to Yuki Yaki at Marina Square. It was certainly an eye opener, since i've never been there before, and the way of "food prep" was unique too. Especially the preparations for the ice cream! we all sat there from abt 1.45 to 4.50pm, having a ball of a time eating n chatting n fooling around with the icecream "cooker". We had a walk around after tat, looking at clothes, shops, etc.. and each of us also met out own friends along the way! which was pretty coincidental as well. After dinner with em, met up with Evelyn, after 1year! we had a good chat, and im v glad to see that she's doing fine for stuffs in sch and personal stuffs.. it must have been the 3 or 4th time i have walked and walked marina and raffles city in the past 7days.

Well, as the hols comes to an end slowly, and the sem is about to start, many things start going thru my mind again. Sometimes i wonder why is it i just cant get things right. and why my results, no matter how i work, its still the same dismal results. And when some ppl discuss about results, they either give u the shocked unbelieving look that "how come u cant get A's and B's?!" . or some will seem even more dismayed and sad than u, and describing as if they'd failed and gotten REAL horrendous results, when all they've gotten is a B at most. and well, it gets kinda demoralising seeing everyone around u improving by leaps and bounds while i myself am crawling at a snail's pace.

2007-12-30T10:21:00.000+08:00

A week packed with events. And results were released this week. A week of anxiety and worries about how i would do this time, and whether my CAP would be pulled up this time around. Monday was Christmas eve. We enjoyed a run in the morning followed by a shower, relaxation, and then a half day off. Tuesday: Christmas. spent it at home. relaxing, cleaned up some stuffs.. Wednesday. It was back at work, as usual. By this time i was more or less readied to drop oout of the team. I have spent many days thinking about this, going through the pros and cons, each and every aspect of what i want and do not want. Having weighed the points, spoken to afew friends, both from school, and my fellow VA officers. Some of the frens whom i spoke to were genuinely ready to listen n help provide a neutral opinion, such as Raynor, Eugene Goh, Eugene Tay, Jas and Jas, Sara. Some of them provided points of view which i have not considered about, which was why i'd wanted to speak to my closer friends, and perhaps gain their 3rd-party opinions. Well, some, i thought were close friends. I could finally reach a decision, even if it was an extremely difficult decision to make. But for my own good, I guess I really do have to make it. Also caught up with Sara on wed evening, and we had a good chat abt many things happening in our lives, as well as worrying bout our results. haha.. congrats to SAra =) went to sleep with a very weary mind. Sometimes, looking forward to something is not good for u. Especially if u were really looking forward to the event, and at the last minute, a change is made. Sometimes, it makes u feel not to really want to plan anything. Or look forward to anything for that matter. Its not that u are pessimistic. Just weary. Thurs morning, while we were in camp, ready to go off for a run, the message only came thru to us that our briefing was to be conducted in 5min time. n we were still in PT kit. It was change parade then. Light later dawned on us that one among us already knew the timing, but the message just wasnt passed down to us. Was my half day leave as well, had a relatively good time with jas walking around Bugis, MArina Sq & Raffles City, and Velocity, looking for something. Haha. My legs were almost broken from all the walking. Had dinner at J8 myself before dropping off Jas at home, and headed to Jason's place for afew more hours of interaction and fun. Friday, Cohesion Day for us. We started the day with Badminton at SAFRA Tampines, followed by the Forest Adventure at Bedok Reservoir Park, Movie (I Am LEgend) at Great World City, and dinner ala buffet at River View Hotel. Had a ball of a time in the day esp playing badminton with Eugene n Sanjev, and the Forest ADventure where i had 2hrs of confidence building and overcoming of my fear of heights. Results were released this week as well. I'd finally had an improvement from my previous grade. Well, it wasnt spectacular, and with 2 modules wasnt what i'd expected, but well, the bell curve works in strange ways. I'm just glad that i have improved, and hopefully, can continue to improve. It is stressful to see the reaction of some people when they give u the shocked unbelieving expression that u are not doing as well as they are, and who verbally patronise you.

memorable end to a weekend

2007-12-23T21:51:00.001+08:00

This weekend, i shld say, was packed with activities. And i never felt bored much.. on saturday, after stoning abit at home and surfing the net, i went to cut my hair before coming home for lunch again. Lunch was mum's cooking. Jus before going home, i went to get my car washed (after not washing it for more than 1month!), and also dropped by jasmin's void deck as she returned me my harddisk, thumbdrives and some VCDs. She also gave me a present for Christmas -- a book called "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren, and chocs. I've browsed thru the book and i think it will make some interesting reading, esp since it is broken up into "40-days" of reading, so to speak, and I shall aim to read one chapter each day over the next 40days. I love the book, and I shall take good care of it.. It is my only Christmas present this yr other than Les Miserables which sam n kyrin gave me, and it means alot alot to me. thanx =) [sigh... too bad my wrapping sucks. I wanna wrap it in plastic so as not to help it grow dog ears =\ anyone help me? haha] After sending sis to sch, i met up with Eugene Tay and raynor for Alvin and the Chipmunks.. I think it is a very nice movie and a very happy one! Went to buy the soundtrack immediately after watching the show.. haha. AFter accompanying Eugene to buy d bdae present for his fren, we sent him to the party venue before heading to PS ourselves (Raynor and I) to catch Lust, Caution. I also feel that this movie is well-built upon and there are twists and turns in the show. This brings the story out well, though i didnt expect the ending to end the way it did.

Today (Sunday 23 Dec): Happy Birthday to Jasmine Loo!
went out with my family from morning til 4pm. Walked around OG and the Middle Road area. While mum and sis were looking at clothes, i spent my time walking around, looking at toys and cars. Makes me wan to revert to my childhood days once again. Was looking at wallets too cuz mine has been at least 1yr already. but sis reminded me though its old n abit worn, its still not spoilt and totally gone case yet. haha.. after resting for abt 15min at home, i changed and went out again to meet Jasmin, Keith Teo and MArcus at their church for the musical and also dinner. All in all, it was a reali nice evening and i reali enjoyed my time with them all.. appreciate their invitations to attend :) Also had a nice time talking with Keith's gf abt working in prison services. It was a short chat but and interesting one where we shared abit of experiences. Dinner was also nice chatting 3 their friends, Marcus, Keith and his gf (dun wanna risk misspelling her name here :x ) Dropped Keith, his gf and another of their frens at thomson for their drinks, i left for home. I would hav liked to join in the the later part of the evening to noe more of JAsmin's Marcus' and Keith's friends, but due to the time and also for me to hav a proper rest before a run early tmr morning, i decided i shldnt just go for 45min and then leave cuz it wun be very nice nor polite. Shall read the first chapter (for Day One) of my one Christmas present now :)

I hope God will carry her thru and her language can be mustered well and all before she goes off to Germany for SEP :)

weekend

2007-12-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

This weekend, so far i have nothing planned for. Awaiting confirmation to meet up with my sec sch buddies Pdus, Benny and Edwin again. probably tmr? haha still tbc. (recently i can only confirm things like 1 day before. how much i've changed...) Also, Marcus, Keith and Jasmin have kindly invited me to their Church for some christmas celebrations or musical tmr 23 Dec. I hope I can make it and thank them for their invitation =)

question of sincerity

2007-12-22T09:36:00.000+08:00

ok, another week has passed. just like that, and so has the 2nd week of holidays for me. A week filled with many feelings, mixed with both happy, sad and confused. somehow, i feel glad that the week is over. or at least, almost over. I read Raynor's post on Relationships on his post, and that has gotten me thinking a lot somehow.

yesterday proved to be a day of super mixed feelings, the most of all days. The day started with work as usual, spending the time at office with my fellow VA officers. I had taken half day leave and it was to meet another friend. Since we'd agreed to only meet at 2.30, i left office at 2pm thereabouts. However, at the last min, literally, the last 15min, things were cancelled and i was given the reply "I cant make it today, sorry". My first reaction was of shock when i saw that sms while driving, and i almost hit the car in front of me. I never believed that such a thing would happen, just 15min before we were due to meet, with no clue whatsoever that this might happen. And tickets for Alvin and the Chipmunks and the performance at Mt.Faber have already been bought (not simply booked). but i told myself that it could have been something really really important that cropped up at the last min, hence blowing our meet away. I waited at PS for 2.5hours, from 2.30-5+, and after so long of waiting for a reply which never came, i jus made the decision of leaving the place. I wanted to wait somemore, but i just couldnt. I felt as if i'd wasted my time and day away. However, somehow, i still harbour the faith that it was something really important which caused the cancellation. Insincerity? I dont know.. at this moment, i dont want to come to any conclusions till i manage to find out what happened. This few days have been busy for my fren with projects, so i THINK it could be some last minute project thing that could have cropped up? i dunno. I think i deserve at least to know what was going on, after the sudden disappointment.
If someone agrees with u on something, but days later pulls back on that agreement, is that insincerity? u never know.. sometimes it seems to be so, but sometimes it could genuinely be something which cropped up and so it has to happen.
In the end, i ended up at Kyrin's place, and i went with her to take a look at the place, so as not to waste the paid-for tickets. It was a nice place, interesting, and we also took the time to have a nice chat about everything. And that brings me to think back again to something i have been thinking since early in the week. The question of how committed i shld be to something. Its not that i dont want to be committed, but over some past experiences, i dont dare to be too committed. To most, dating is the happiest thing and time, but for me, it dun seem so. That feeling of uncertainty harbours in me most often. Having talked to Kyrin, i also reaffirmed to myself that things need time, but some part of me also warns me against hoping too much, esp since there is a big difference which I cant do much about. I can only work on things, and let nature take its course.. cliche as it might sound, but some things just cannot be explained. I think Sam and Kyrin really makes a good couple, they understand each other perfectly, make time for each other, and they are never far from each others' minds, naturally. I envy them.. May they be together forever and for many many happy years to come.

Sunday: watched Nanking with Jasmin and her friend. It was a sad movie, and i think the saddest was listening to the ppl recounting their experiences, and looking at the actual clips taken from the wartime itself. We also spent sometime walking around, looking around vivo, chatting, looking at books etc.. it was a nice afternoon spent, and at 5+, i decided we send beth home, so that jasmin and her could have more time tog and continue talking more.. haha, and along the way, i blur-ly accidentally revealed that i was at Tecman the day before. So much for wanting to not reveal where i got the present and keep it a surprise til the moment i gave jas the present. grr how cock can i be? haa

Monday and Tuesday: mainly prep and prep for our in-camp Christmas celebrations on tues night.

Wednesday: mainly jus in office, and in the afternoon, headed back to sch to work on our pushbar til 8+. Was super drained then.. but during the time back at school, I learnt how to do welding! =) initially it was scary cos i was scared to be burnt by the flying arc and burning electrode, but i slowly got the hang of it. If i didnt have VA, i guess i would want to work on my welding skills more. Sam passed me a present from him and Kyrin and asked for my car keys to put into my car. It was a DVD of the LEs Miserables 10th Anniversary concert! Such dvds are hard to find on the market nowadays and only certain major stores carry them.. I wish one day Les Miserables will come to Singapore once more. Though i think it is a hope against hope. haha..

f r i d a y

2007-12-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

ok, its friday again.. and one wk has jus gone, jus like tat! sooo fast. ohh myyy..
=( spent a pretty much of the day driving.. the good thing was that i headed straight to sungei gedong camp instead of back to camp, den to SG camp. from there, met some ex-instructors and the WOSEs, n hanging around looking at the guys doing the MMP. 2+, started out on a long ride from the ulu-est camp in lim chu kang and headed to concourse to buy the christmas stuffs for our unit christmas celeb on tues.. after which, Eugene Tay, Raynor n i headed to suntec to order another 2 turkeys :p ffoooooddddd! dinner at thomson... n im so tired again.. sheesh. hm, nx wk tues will be christmas celeb on tues. n there's a public hol on thurs..