A week packed with events. And results were released this week. A week of anxiety and worries about how i would do this time, and whether my CAP would be pulled up this time around. Monday was Christmas eve. We enjoyed a run in the morning followed by a shower, relaxation, and then a half day off. Tuesday: Christmas. spent it at home. relaxing, cleaned up some stuffs.. Wednesday. It was back at work, as usual. By this time i was more or less readied to drop oout of the team. I have spent many days thinking about this, going through the pros and cons, each and every aspect of what i want and do not want. Having weighed the points, spoken to afew friends, both from school, and my fellow VA officers. Some of the frens whom i spoke to were genuinely ready to listen n help provide a neutral opinion, such as Raynor, Eugene Goh, Eugene Tay, Jas and Jas, Sara. Some of them provided points of view which i have not considered about, which was why i'd wanted to speak to my closer friends, and perhaps gain their 3rd-party opinions. Well, some, i thought were close friends. I could finally reach a decision, even if it was an extremely difficult decision to make. But for my own good, I guess I really do have to make it. Also caught up with Sara on wed evening, and we had a good chat abt many things happening in our lives, as well as worrying bout our results. haha.. congrats to SAra =) went to sleep with a very weary mind. Sometimes, looking forward to something is not good for u. Especially if u were really looking forward to the event, and at the last minute, a change is made. Sometimes, it makes u feel not to really want to plan anything. Or look forward to anything for that matter. Its not that u are pessimistic. Just weary. Thurs morning, while we were in camp, ready to go off for a run, the message only came thru to us that our briefing was to be conducted in 5min time. n we were still in PT kit. It was change parade then. Light later dawned on us that one among us already knew the timing, but the message just wasnt passed down to us. Was my half day leave as well, had a relatively good time with jas walking around Bugis, MArina Sq & Raffles City, and Velocity, looking for something. Haha. My legs were almost broken from all the walking. Had dinner at J8 myself before dropping off Jas at home, and headed to Jason's place for afew more hours of interaction and fun. Friday, Cohesion Day for us. We started the day with Badminton at SAFRA Tampines, followed by the Forest Adventure at Bedok Reservoir Park, Movie (I Am LEgend) at Great World City, and dinner ala buffet at River View Hotel. Had a ball of a time in the day esp playing badminton with Eugene n Sanjev, and the Forest ADventure where i had 2hrs of confidence building and overcoming of my fear of heights. Results were released this week as well. I'd finally had an improvement from my previous grade. Well, it wasnt spectacular, and with 2 modules wasnt what i'd expected, but well, the bell curve works in strange ways. I'm just glad that i have improved, and hopefully, can continue to improve. It is stressful to see the reaction of some people when they give u the shocked unbelieving expression that u are not doing as well as they are, and who verbally patronise you.

memorable end to a weekend

This weekend, i shld say, was packed with activities. And i never felt bored much.. on saturday, after stoning abit at home and surfing the net, i went to cut my hair before coming home for lunch again. Lunch was mum's cooking. Jus before going home, i went to get my car washed (after not washing it for more than 1month!), and also dropped by jasmin's void deck as she returned me my harddisk, thumbdrives and some VCDs. She also gave me a present for Christmas -- a book called "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren, and chocs. I've browsed thru the book and i think it will make some interesting reading, esp since it is broken up into "40-days" of reading, so to speak, and I shall aim to read one chapter each day over the next 40days. I love the book, and I shall take good care of it.. It is my only Christmas present this yr other than Les Miserables which sam n kyrin gave me, and it means alot alot to me. thanx =) [sigh... too bad my wrapping sucks. I wanna wrap it in plastic so as not to help it grow dog ears =\ anyone help me? haha] After sending sis to sch, i met up with Eugene Tay and raynor for Alvin and the Chipmunks.. I think it is a very nice movie and a very happy one! Went to buy the soundtrack immediately after watching the show.. haha. AFter accompanying Eugene to buy d bdae present for his fren, we sent him to the party venue before heading to PS ourselves (Raynor and I) to catch Lust, Caution. I also feel that this movie is well-built upon and there are twists and turns in the show. This brings the story out well, though i didnt expect the ending to end the way it did.

Today (Sunday 23 Dec): Happy Birthday to Jasmine Loo!
went out with my family from morning til 4pm. Walked around OG and the Middle Road area. While mum and sis were looking at clothes, i spent my time walking around, looking at toys and cars. Makes me wan to revert to my childhood days once again. Was looking at wallets too cuz mine has been at least 1yr already. but sis reminded me though its old n abit worn, its still not spoilt and totally gone case yet. haha.. after resting for abt 15min at home, i changed and went out again to meet Jasmin, Keith Teo and MArcus at their church for the musical and also dinner. All in all, it was a reali nice evening and i reali enjoyed my time with them all.. appreciate their invitations to attend :) Also had a nice time talking with Keith's gf abt working in prison services. It was a short chat but and interesting one where we shared abit of experiences. Dinner was also nice chatting 3 their friends, Marcus, Keith and his gf (dun wanna risk misspelling her name here :x ) Dropped Keith, his gf and another of their frens at thomson for their drinks, i left for home. I would hav liked to join in the the later part of the evening to noe more of JAsmin's Marcus' and Keith's friends, but due to the time and also for me to hav a proper rest before a run early tmr morning, i decided i shldnt just go for 45min and then leave cuz it wun be very nice nor polite. Shall read the first chapter (for Day One) of my one Christmas present now :)

I hope God will carry her thru and her language can be mustered well and all before she goes off to Germany for SEP :)

weekend

This weekend, so far i have nothing planned for. Awaiting confirmation to meet up with my sec sch buddies Pdus, Benny and Edwin again. probably tmr? haha still tbc. (recently i can only confirm things like 1 day before. how much i've changed...) Also, Marcus, Keith and Jasmin have kindly invited me to their Church for some christmas celebrations or musical tmr 23 Dec. I hope I can make it and thank them for their invitation =)

question of sincerity

ok, another week has passed. just like that, and so has the 2nd week of holidays for me. A week filled with many feelings, mixed with both happy, sad and confused. somehow, i feel glad that the week is over. or at least, almost over. I read Raynor's post on Relationships on his post, and that has gotten me thinking a lot somehow.

yesterday proved to be a day of super mixed feelings, the most of all days. The day started with work as usual, spending the time at office with my fellow VA officers. I had taken half day leave and it was to meet another friend. Since we'd agreed to only meet at 2.30, i left office at 2pm thereabouts. However, at the last min, literally, the last 15min, things were cancelled and i was given the reply "I cant make it today, sorry". My first reaction was of shock when i saw that sms while driving, and i almost hit the car in front of me. I never believed that such a thing would happen, just 15min before we were due to meet, with no clue whatsoever that this might happen. And tickets for Alvin and the Chipmunks and the performance at Mt.Faber have already been bought (not simply booked). but i told myself that it could have been something really really important that cropped up at the last min, hence blowing our meet away. I waited at PS for 2.5hours, from 2.30-5+, and after so long of waiting for a reply which never came, i jus made the decision of leaving the place. I wanted to wait somemore, but i just couldnt. I felt as if i'd wasted my time and day away. However, somehow, i still harbour the faith that it was something really important which caused the cancellation. Insincerity? I dont know.. at this moment, i dont want to come to any conclusions till i manage to find out what happened. This few days have been busy for my fren with projects, so i THINK it could be some last minute project thing that could have cropped up? i dunno. I think i deserve at least to know what was going on, after the sudden disappointment.
If someone agrees with u on something, but days later pulls back on that agreement, is that insincerity? u never know.. sometimes it seems to be so, but sometimes it could genuinely be something which cropped up and so it has to happen.
In the end, i ended up at Kyrin's place, and i went with her to take a look at the place, so as not to waste the paid-for tickets. It was a nice place, interesting, and we also took the time to have a nice chat about everything. And that brings me to think back again to something i have been thinking since early in the week. The question of how committed i shld be to something. Its not that i dont want to be committed, but over some past experiences, i dont dare to be too committed. To most, dating is the happiest thing and time, but for me, it dun seem so. That feeling of uncertainty harbours in me most often. Having talked to Kyrin, i also reaffirmed to myself that things need time, but some part of me also warns me against hoping too much, esp since there is a big difference which I cant do much about. I can only work on things, and let nature take its course.. cliche as it might sound, but some things just cannot be explained. I think Sam and Kyrin really makes a good couple, they understand each other perfectly, make time for each other, and they are never far from each others' minds, naturally. I envy them.. May they be together forever and for many many happy years to come.

Sunday: watched Nanking with Jasmin and her friend. It was a sad movie, and i think the saddest was listening to the ppl recounting their experiences, and looking at the actual clips taken from the wartime itself. We also spent sometime walking around, looking around vivo, chatting, looking at books etc.. it was a nice afternoon spent, and at 5+, i decided we send beth home, so that jasmin and her could have more time tog and continue talking more.. haha, and along the way, i blur-ly accidentally revealed that i was at Tecman the day before. So much for wanting to not reveal where i got the present and keep it a surprise til the moment i gave jas the present. grr how cock can i be? haa

Monday and Tuesday: mainly prep and prep for our in-camp Christmas celebrations on tues night.

Wednesday: mainly jus in office, and in the afternoon, headed back to sch to work on our pushbar til 8+. Was super drained then.. but during the time back at school, I learnt how to do welding! =) initially it was scary cos i was scared to be burnt by the flying arc and burning electrode, but i slowly got the hang of it. If i didnt have VA, i guess i would want to work on my welding skills more. Sam passed me a present from him and Kyrin and asked for my car keys to put into my car. It was a DVD of the LEs Miserables 10th Anniversary concert! Such dvds are hard to find on the market nowadays and only certain major stores carry them.. I wish one day Les Miserables will come to Singapore once more. Though i think it is a hope against hope. haha..

f r i d a y

ok, its friday again.. and one wk has jus gone, jus like tat! sooo fast. ohh myyy..
=( spent a pretty much of the day driving.. the good thing was that i headed straight to sungei gedong camp instead of back to camp, den to SG camp. from there, met some ex-instructors and the WOSEs, n hanging around looking at the guys doing the MMP. 2+, started out on a long ride from the ulu-est camp in lim chu kang and headed to concourse to buy the christmas stuffs for our unit christmas celeb on tues.. after which, Eugene Tay, Raynor n i headed to suntec to order another 2 turkeys :p ffoooooddddd! dinner at thomson... n im so tired again.. sheesh. hm, nx wk tues will be christmas celeb on tues. n there's a public hol on thurs..

hols are here.. finallyyy .

hah, been soo long since i touched this again.. thanx to exams. well, dun wanna talk abt it.. rewinding my days a little bit..

Tues 11Dec: (today!)
the usual, reached office at 8am. made quite a few calls today. 1) Called the SSC first thing at 9am to ask abt the bible. asked them to help me check n check, but there wasnt a reported one =\ sighh =( 2) call to mt faber . 3) more calls here n there, rgding the parade, see if eugene n gang needed help or anyth. after lunch, drove raynor down to see the MO. and i think someone cleverly put the name list wrongly, he was the 2nd patient, ended up with a whole lot of guys who went in before him to see the MO. n he onli went in for 1 2min?! grrr.. n i went down to pick him back, ended up waiting for 1hr myself, with him too. haha. well, back to assisting with the parade n helping my colleagues. Day ended at abt 5.30.. went to recce the Life bookstore for some books and pay a visit to the vcd rental shop both at J8, before heading home.. hm, it was pretty relaxing looking at some of the books in the Life bookshop at junction8 4th level. looking around there..

Mon 10 Dec:
back to work! report to unit, n straightaway i kena a parade rehearsal.. nothing much, but still shag somehow, helping colleagues n friends shift n carry stuffs n all.. logistics stuffs. plus briefing on what to expect for the next few wks back at work. hmmmm. gonna hav to juggle with work/office and FSAE. hope my friends will all understand if im not able to make it back to sch as often and as much as everyone else. after work, i went straight back to sch, and dropped by the student service centre and campus security.. got hold of the number for SSC since it was closed alr, exactly at 6.30pm, no more no less! went on to Campus security to ask if they had picked up a lost bible, and i linked up with one of the guard 'uncles' to unlock the tut room and search the room.. searched high and low, but cldnt find it. The guard said the rooms were cleaned by the cleaners every single day and so often used. so, could be with the SSC. gave up searching after awhile, the room was reali toooo clean =X oh man.. I know how u probably feel right now. went on then to meet the FSAE guys, n after tat met with ws to return the sentosa card. went home and slept at 10.15 before waking again at 11, having forgotten to do sth. haha, shows how much i can sleep n get easily awakened eh?

Sun 9 Dec:
continue preping for my uniforms in the morning. caught Hero with Jas.. n had a nice time walking ard window shopping, n also bought wrapping paper n stuffs n she helped me wrap Sam's present.. now i hav an extra pair of sissors & one small roll of scotch tape. The movie was in Jap, so at first had a pretty hard time understanding, but gradually the picture came to me abt what the movie was about. TO think i was under the impression that it had something to do with the HeroS (with the 'S'). haha.. it was a great afternoon =) "thank you!"
after sending jas back, i went back to the Glass House. the journey onli took me 5min. cldnt believe it myself! was expecting a greatt jam on a sunday evening. had dinner with Sam, Kyrin, Ben and Xiaoping at The Glass House.. sup to be a surprise for SAm for his birthday. haa guess i din exactly lie too well yesterday when at Max's workshop. haha.. after dinner, the 4 of them went for a movie i think, i went home to do final packing for my stuffs n uniform for work tmr.
looking fwd to catching Nanking together =)

Sat 8 Dec:
Cousin's wedding day.. actually din involve me much. cos sis cldnt go. the day was spent with alot alot of driving around. Went to get Sam's present from MAx in AMK, but thanx to his absence, i had to run from AMK, to West Coast to borrow ws' sentosa free entry card, then back to AMK. and guess who i met at the workshop while i was leaving there for the first time? the birthday boy himself! grrr.. tink i was a bad liar. haha. watched Enchanted with sis in the evenin at vivocity.. its a v happy movie. =) a "happily ever after" movie .. haha

Fri 7 Dec:
backkk to school.. FSAE. briefings.. haha looks like this hols are gonna be tied up and pretty much banged up and burnt! spent a whole day in sch til 5+ before heading to PP to pick up mum and sis..

Thurs 6 Dec:
Met with 2 different friends, one whom i met in Engin camp, the other in the evening with an old old friend.. haha it was great catching up again =) its been toooo long.. haha. received an email from the seniors with regards to FSAE restarting once again.. tomoro to report for duty. aha

Wed 5 Dec:
Finally got to catch up with Pdus, Benny n Edwin once again after its been soo long! see lah? the results of being in diff schools. NTU, NUS & in NZ. haha.. watched 2 movies "Fred Claus" and "Golden Compass", plus a session of digging into Ben and Jerry's and KFC! heh..

one my favourite youtube videos .. how i wish les miserables would come to singapore again.. oh maaannn .

here's one of my favourite passages which i find pretty meaningful n true (?) =)


- A Great Reminder -

A philosophy professor stood before his class. He had some items on the table in front of him. When class began, he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks about 2" in diameter.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. Then the professor picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the rocks. He then asked the students if the jar was full. Again they agreed that it was. When the professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar the students laughed. The sand, of course, filled in everything else.

When pouring everything out and reversing the order of filling the jar by putting the sand into the jar first, there was no room for all the pebbles and rocks, even when shaking the jar.

"Now," said the professor, holding up the jar, "I want you to recognize that this is your life. The rocks are the important things in your life, your family, your partner, your health, your children - anything that is so important to you that, if it were lost, you would be nearly destroyed. The pebbles are the other things in your life that matter, your job, your house, your car. The sand is just that... the small stuff. The order of filling the jar applies the same way to your life. If you spend all your energy and time on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. So pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Be with your family.... play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out on a date..... dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first.... the things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

imparo is driving me nuts . . . ok, not that i've been exactly the superly duperly hardworking type during the sem, but oh man. its crazy. this lecturer is .. no comments. well, gotta work on my studies n concentrate more than ever, and stick to my study plan as far as possible!! *growls* intending to finish fluids by next wednesday so that on thurs i'd be more prepared n not so alienated when the lecturers go thru the 3hr revision lecture.. h o p e f u l l y ! even though most of the lectures have ended, there's tis still insecure feeling. hahaha ..

here's something i received recently, not so sure the accuracy of it all.. it sounds logical to me so far ..

Do not pump full tank of petrol
Many of us are not aware that the petrol kiosk pump has a return pipe-line (in black ). When the petrol tank (in the car) reaches full level, there is a mechanism to trigger off the pump latch and at the same time a return-valve is opened (at the top of the pump station) to allow excess petrol to flow back into the sump. But the return petrolhas already pass through the meter, meaning you are donating thepetrol back to SHELL/ PETRONAS/ CALTEX/MOBIL. ......... Best Regards and Safe Driving

*Pumping Gas - Good to Know
I've been inpetroleum pipeline business for about 31 years, currently working for the Kinder-Morgan Pipeline here in San Jose , CA . We deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period from the pipe line; one day it'sdiesel, the next day it's jet fuel and gasoline. We have 34 storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.

Here are some tricks to help you get your money's worth:
1.Fill up your car or truck in the morning when the temperature is stillcool. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground; and the colder the ground, the denser the gasoline. When it gets warmer gasoline expands, so if you're filling up in the afternoon or in the evening, what should be a gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and temperature of the fuel (gasoline, diesel, jet fuel, ethanol and other petroleum products) are significant. Every truckload that we load is temperature- compensated so that the indicated gallonage is actually the amount pumped. A one-degree rise in temperature is a big deal for businesses, but service stations don't have temperature compensationat their pumps.

2. If a tanker truck is filling the station's tank at the time youwant to buy gas, do not fill up; most likely dirt and sludge in the tank is being stirred up when gas is being delivered, and you might be transferring that dirt from the bottom of their tank into your car's tank.

3. Fill up when your gas tank is half-full (or half-empty), because the more gas you have in your tank the less air there is and gasoline evaporates rapidly,especially when it's warm. (Gasoline storage tank shave an internal floating 'roof' membrane to act as a barrier between the gas and the atmosphere, thereby minimizing evaporation).

4. If you look at the trigger you'll see that it has three delivery settings: slow, medium and high. When you're filling up do not squeeze the trigger of the nozzle to the high setting. You should be pumping at the slow setting, thereby minimizing vapors created while you are pumping. Hoses at the pump are corrugated; the corrugations act as a return path for vapor recovery from gas that already has been metered. If youare pumping at the high setting, the agitated gasoline contains more vapor,which is being sucked back into the underground tank, so you're getting less gas for your money. Hope this will help ease your 'pain at the pump.

5. Do not top off your gas tank, when the pump shuts off, do not keep trying to add more gas. A friend who owns a gas station says that by doing this, you are actually giving the next customer a $1.00worth of gas. The gas you pump stays in the hose and never makes it to your tank........ ... good to know


hmm, how true is this? im not so sure myself..

ok.. once again, its been a long long time since i last posted here. now exams are coming.. why post again? hhaha. stress, many things on my mind? hm. recently jus last wkend i bought another of Andrew Matthew's books : "Follow Your Heart" . Makes nice reading, though i have to go through slowlyy.. haha. dunno why i bought it, but well, i just did . despite a rough last wk, i really am so glad that everything's fine again now. Thank God, i really really hope that it is now all sorted out in the end .. =)

Eugene Goh's getting married! well.. ROM-ed . on 21st Nov . just 3 days before fluids exam.. i need to chiong and finish whatever i can as much as i can so that i can at least make it for the reception dinner .. *growls*

okay, before i head off to sch, here's sth lame which evelyn sent to me recently.. haha

DORMITORY:> When you rearrange the letters:> DIRTY ROOM
PRESBYTERIAN:> When you rearrange the letters:> BEST IN PRAYER
ASTRONOMER:> When you rearrange the letters:> MOON STARER
DESPERATION:> When you rearrange the letters:> A ROPE ENDS IT
THE EYES:> When you rearrange the letters:> THEY SEE
GEORGE BUSH:> When you rearrange the letters:> HE BUGS GORE
THE MORSE CODE:> When you rearrange the letters:> HERE COME DOTS
SLOT MACHINES:> When you rearrange the letters:> CASH LOST IN ME
ANIMOSITY:> When you rearrange the letters:> IS NO AMITY
ELECTION RESULTS:> When you rearrange the letters:> LIES - LET'S RECOUNT
SNOOZE ALARMS:> When you rearrange the letters:> ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S
A DECIMAL POINT:> When you rearrange the letters:> IM A DOT IN PLACE
THE EARTHQUAKES:> When you rearrange the letters:> THAT QUEER SHAKE
ELEVEN PLUS TWO:> When you rearrange the letters:> TWELVE PLUS ONE



AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:.................................................



MOTHER-IN-LAW:> When you rearrange the letters:> WOMAN HITLER

Yep! Someone with waaaaaaaaaaay too much time on their hands! (Probably a son-in-law) Bet your friends haven't seen this one!!!

been a long long time since i last touched this.. many events happening. work, end of work, and then of course, sch has started again .

i am so confused now.

shagged out

haa tell me im mad today.. after running 10km yesterday at passionrun, i ran another 7km today, thanx to my fellow officers! haa well it was tiring, along the way with my muscles aching & very uptight, unstretched properly.. but i still managed to complete it! wahahahaaha! =) at a v sloww timing of course.. initially din exactly want to run because i was still quite tired from yesterday's run, and muscles are exhausted. but in the end i decided to just run. partly to clear my mind of things for the moment. and to try to 'cure' myself of that sian-ness tat i've been feeling allll day. a feeling of mixed, well, feelings.. zzzz.

hm ate another piece of jas' choc which came from switzerland.. yum! hav to control on chocs.. if not . . . . . . ffaaaattttt ! heh.

tis wk is gonna be a borrrinnggg week. nothing on til fri after work perhaps. lookin fwd to fri.. sth to do or eaattt.. =)

an unanswered Qn

a question i've been asking myself for afew weeks, and jus now it jus reinforced itself only.. why does talking to u, online, sms, wadever.. nowadays, seem so . . weird? was it anything i did? or something that occurred? or back in march after that day? I was so happy talking to u then, but now.. i dunno what to feel.

just another day, with a half day off =)

Today, after like a wk of quite abit of madness, i took half day leave.. having bought another extra day of leave. This wk started quite a madness one, with parade on mon, den a day which our pay was the most difficult to earn.. went out today for lunch, Transformers, den to National Lib to search for malay cartoons, n den to the airport to send Eugene Ho off! (All the Best in Aus Eugene!) Overall, it was a reali reali great day.. super enjoyable & relaxing. though i tink i talked quite abit? oops =S haha! im glad i took the leave n spent it the way i did.. thanks alot! =) haha, i hope there'l be another chance like tis, fun n great interaction time, & definitely a good break & relaxation for me.. =)

and yes, Transformers is awesome, fantastic! (to my taste at least..) i loved it! never regret watching it yah? hehe

o-week's coming up.. would like to join o-week for that particular reason i have, in which im also encouraged by the few bros to attend.. but yet, i find myself hesitating at times, despite the initial enthusiam. I dun exactly know the answer myself to be honest. Why do i have the hesitation? isit lack of confidence to talk to her? fear? or something else..? need to think abt tat more.. hmm. & Rag.. i reali hope i have the means to help my fellow raggers from last yr as much as i can. but i cant cos of super time constraint. sigh. torn between both sides..

hm tml back to work again, but its finally fri.. probably have to drop by Esplanade lib somehow to find wat i need.. hopefully i cAn find. bleahh..

Dinner with Pdus & Benny tmr.. look fwd to it! =)

Engin Camp 07 -- All Aboard!

I came to realise that i've not touched this page for almost 1mth already, the last time being (see below!) Jasmin jus reminded me about it. since i've nothing to do now and nothing on? ok, i'l do something to my page... haha. ok, shows much 'discipline' i have? haha. busy? not very, yet, yes, i am. Being at work, office, helping to organise things, and disappearing from military and everything else for 1 whole week at engin camp 07, 17-22nd june 07. And then i got back my 'civilian' and 'young' life back for that week, having fun like nobody's business, playing around, cheering, shouting, generally playing a fool! Imagine me in uniform doing that? heh.

tis is my OG Barbossa at Sentosa on Day 3 of Engin Camp, the afternn part. My favourite photo from the camp! okay, mayb i shld start from the beginning of day 1? haha

actuali, we started off going back to sch on sunday night, writing the names on the armbands for our OGs, and preparing the mascot. For the other houses, they did a super elaborate mascot, but us Pyrates? it was jus a flag.. heh. simple and sweet! =) nothing big nor incredible. Halfway thru that, we had to drive out to try to search for paint, in vain of course. it was already 9+ 10pm. everyone was closed. Shops that is.. at BeautyWorld. what came after was the briefing for councillors, and then sleeping time. Lucky enough to have Clara around, cos then we cld sleep in the rock gym! matresses were like waterbeds.. heh.

Monday, Day 1. Registration, ice breakers, the usual.. as craig says, the games are all senseless, but then again, its an orientation camp! how sensible can it be? the games that is.. haha. 5 guys 3 girls freshies, with 4guys and 3gal councillors. quite a small group? i guess we started off on a good note, everyone talking, not too quiet, though not exactly very noisy? haha. needed abit more 'poking' from us councillors. Afternoon spent at SRC courts for telematches. All the sabo-ing etc etc. Even me the camera man also went in together to be sabo-ed together with the OG, getting paint, flour, camo cream etc.. haha. All for the fun together! the demoralizer came when issac's nose was banged n fractured (we found out later) by another house ic (shall not name who, later he paiseh =P ) Brendan spent the afternoon from abt 4+ 5pm with issac at NUH, while i choked down my dinner and went down to NUH to wait with him and pick him up from abt 8pm to almost 10pm getting back to eusoff hall. All in all, that poor boy waited for close to 5hrs just to take an x-ray and listen to the doc talk for less than 5min. Glad he didnt miss SP night though (for the 1st night that is.) . It feels good to be on the 'other side' of the SP thingy. Being the one disturbing, not the 'disturbed'! hehe any freshies, if u read tis, pls dun kill me. i was disturbing our og gals n 3 guys most of the time.. but day one was mild, jus simple talking, laughing. It also proved to be a chance for me to interact with some fellow councillors whom we jus see around but never talk. Well, the start of 'hell week' for my skin. Im RED already. Went for supper at West Coast mac. Sherning's car squeezed dunno how many ppl, while i had 4 guys behind & another beside me.

Tues, pools games. Another funnyy day, all sorts of funny things in the pool. The usual pool games? n super hilarious, esp when the 'Ha Ha cards' came into the picture, then weird things started to appear. Lixiang's og doing the tokyo drift song for cheer, in the water! us tau-pok-ing Armeet, and our house playing around cos we found our own house ogs competing against each other time and again! Well, we din win much again today, but what the heck. Objective is for the freshies to have fun and bond! =) morning ended with drag queen. Tis yr quite mild.. last yr was more .. ... creative n open. hahaha. shall not comment more. Nonetheless, another great (but burnt) morning! our og guys r very lucky, they got a car to put their things in so tat they dun have to lug it around for fac walk. And dear Jamen broke my car record when he asked me to help him send the speaker n stuff over to LT6. I had to up my back seats so that my car became a two seater! Faculty walk, well, the lame games, all in the name of fun! making noise in Engineering blocks, running all over the place. Yan Ling! u're good at listening to instructions! though i sabo-ed her for a moment and made her get water-shot at. hehe.

MYstery night, its a scaled down version of fright night. It started at 8pm++. Going to different stations to gather 'clues' and try to 'solve' the mystery. Guys and gals paired up to walk in in twos to see n search for clues (while getting frightened of course =P ) From central lib rooftop to the tunnel, and in E3 blk. That was Sara's station, the sch-girl. It was supposed to be the scariest station, but i din go up to take a look. We spent like almost 2hrs waiting to go up. When the freshies were done, it just started to rain. Well, tis started a damp night, and it was already pretty late, and i was half dead already, though the og was generally still full of energy! they even wanted to play catching around LT7A! They ended up with the old old oolllddd game pepsi cola, jus when jamen called for Roy, Sherning and me to assist in the ferrying of the whole camp back to Eusoff Hall. Before that though, pizza was ordered, apparently on either the camp or comm (dunno who. But thanks!) 3am++, ferrying started. with 4 cars and 1 van going to and fro. My 2nd record for the car broken. At one point of time, i had 5 girls behind and 2 in the front seat! guys record is 4 or 5 at the back and 1 in front. my goodness.. heartpain for my suspension. Could feel the hard bang of it when i cleared the humps, but oh well.. objective was to get everyone back asap, to rest. Cos Sentosa's on the next day. goodness.. cant imagine i was still driving at 4am+! slept at abt 0430 that day.

Day 3. Sentosa day! woke up totally shaggged out. had to drag myself to wake up. At least i was on the matress tonight, not the hard bedframe, so it was a wee bit more comfortable. Though it was a squeeze with sherning and craig on the 2 joined-together matress on the floor. hehe. Sentosa games, dunno why, tis og seems to be able to play better and more active when they are more tired! we won more games today definitely. hahaha! and i tot i cld stay dry til at least the 4th or 5th game, but no. was sabo-ed by someone (gal in orange, i still rmb..one of the game masters or comm, something like that) to be dunked and mua-chee-ed by Ethan & Tsinli's group! my goodness.. cant even escape, they jus sneaked up behind me at only the 2nd station. grrrr. after that dun care liao, jus went to get wet and wet and ... even wetter. It was a great morning, we had the modified Frisbee game, those blind-folded water bomb games, some modified version of sissors-paper-stones game in the water, dunking of course, and another couple of games i cant remember. and tis ended with the house-level water-bomb war. this started off as pure fun at first, which then somehow became a wee bit nasty at first, but ended with truce, and whacking the comm members.. heh.

AFter lunch, round the island games. We all started to feel the tiredness starting to kick in. While some other groups were running for checkpoints, we jus relaxed and slowly walked from point to point..relaxing! jus have fun lor. 8stations, to collect 8 medallions as the 'points'.went to diffe places doing different things at each place, from the merlion fountation, to the dragon's trail walk, to the underwater world entrance. We completed abt 6 stations until time to exercise cut.

tis photo is an act cool one. pls dun kill me. haha.. im all Red already, and wearing last yr's o-week orange singlet doesnt help at all. haha. Those sunglasses? Brendan's Oakleys. arghhh.. temptation!!!

Back to Eusoff Hall for 2nd nite of SP. The even more disturbing night.. Disturbing the freshies that is. making them do funny things, opening sweets with mouths, feeding each other cake. hahaha! well, for them it was chatting and talking abt, anything.. feeling weird and funny, talking to the one they 'chose'. Thinking back, it was soo fast. Being jus 1yr ago when i was in their shoes? feeling so paiseh, weird, yet a new kind of activity, talking to Jasmin. haha. and well, the most coincidental thing is we live sooo damn near to each other! but tat's besides the point haha. Wonder if any of them are keeping in contact with their SPs. After the 'disturbing' session, they had their dance prac again, but i was too dead tired, i jus fell asleep in front at the table until craig chased me back to the room to wash up. well, after i was done n heading back to the hall to see them dance, they jus returned to their rooms already. wheww.. time to sleep. too tired, no strength already. Weishan lent me her aloe vera to cool my skin.. thanks alloootttt weishan! =)) if not for it, i'd be dead.. no need sleep sia. haha.

Day 4. AMK Hub. On the bus out to AMK, it felt like it was booking out of camp after 5 days! my goodness.. shows how long i've not stayed-in already. hehe =P games at AMK hub & AMK park..picture speaks more than words, shall put up afew photos yea?

intro

hm, its been abt, (wat?) 2 3 days since i started tis? haha.. n den every night busy with sth n nvr got back to tis.. so now im finally sitting down in front of the comp, writing, typing, talking, dreaming, thinking...... haa. what shld i start with? hm perhaps a bit of an intro about myself..

im student & civil servant (Regular).. NUS now. Mechanical engineering.. just ended yr1 with a not-too-prominent-good result . have quite abit to buck up for the remaining 6 sems! bleah..

hm, 23 tis yr. old already.. was formerly from Maris Stella High Sch, den on the VJC, and finally ended up in NUS. In the Army, i was trained in Armour as a cadet, commissioned on 23 Jan 05. went on to BRC before disrupting for studies.. (those were the days man..)

have made some great friends along the way, over the days, years.. from all the various places listed above.. haha those of u guys who happen to be reading tis, sorry if i accidentally miss out ur names kae? =) thanx to those who hav stayed by me all these times.. Craig! from brigade, always kah jiao me, but ultimately still in the same course together, gg vivo to eat, etc.. Benny, Edwin, Pdus! those sec days.. VJC, well, gotta be the frens in 01s43 & 02s42, n not forgetting, the VJC Symphonic Band!! =) army, my sierra wing fellow frens, Armour, Craig, Lenny, ji ji wai wai, Daniel Lin, my always faithful Danny chua & Encik.. heh. n in NUS, A13! (the first tutorial class we ever had in NUS as the freshies!) especially Gee Hoe, Kaiwei, Wei Cheng, Tan Jo, Marcus, Sara, Deb, Wai Teng! stone n blur tog, though wai teng & WC r the smart ones! :D Samuel, Kyrin, thankx for standing by me all tis while.. n tahan-ing my sian-ness at times.. haha. jasman, yanxiang, sze kang, the lecture kakis.. n well, the other frens i made from engin camp from my OG!! & ENGIN RAG 06! u guys rock! loved the times.. though too bad i cant reali join u guys again tis time, have to squeeze out time already, n kena squeeze dry.. haa, other frens here n there, musnt forget ppl in archery too, Linette, Joo Yong, the guys who taught me (sorrie, i forgot ur names.. haha).. & the 3 jas'es i know.. all in different ways, different places. haha.. jasmin, my sp in engin camp 06, jas loo (thru jasmin), & jas phua (thru sam) .. waa confusion! if i combine tis 3 with only the shorts forms, i tink i can confuse ppl at first! heh. okay, lamee.. hmm the list goes on n on n on.. oh! n my MNO grp last sem! Marcus & Guan Jie! yeaa! our very own self made video.. heh. many more to list.. bleahzz. n introducing, the ... VA Contingent! hahaha! guys, the days in office cant be more interesting without u guys! =))

hm oh, n introducing someone-something which is as good as my gf.. my beloved car:

good old suzuki swift of mine.. well, in another wk's time, she'l be 1yr old! =) haha.. faithfully staying by me, no complaints, n keeping my company all the time..

well well, did i miss out anyth impt? haha.. back to present abit ba. tis hols.. well, my 3rd VA. back to attachment, learning stuffs back at work, studying (yes! study!!) .. when FSAE starts, im gonna be studying even more man! bleah.. n 2wks ago, was busy with our vj alumni band (thanx xiuyu, for d sunflower! n merv, for e chance to write out the song til i almost finished it..) after which, time to prep for engin camp, the dry run last sat was fun fUn FUN!! =) though i mus say, my psycho-moto is gonna react liao, cant coordinate the dance steps.. hehe. made more new frens last sat (2 Jun).. =) haha, Tsinli, u'l know n rmb my moves all kalang-kapok quite afew times lo.. tis sat's the briefing for the pre-camp for d freshies, n dry run nx wk, before the camp proper on 18-21 jun 07! looking fwd to another wk of fun again.. haha

but more present first, tis sat, probably will help out at e police wk carnival thingy, help keith wong (aka bapak), den see if i can join e ppl for e food hunt dry run anot.. else mon, i might be there.. hopefully. hmm, tat's quite present..

haa, over tis yr, tis past months, there have been great times, n also down times.. have been thru them, inside, den emerged again.. many a times, i ended up asking myself questions, n until now, though i hav tried to jus let it go, im still asking myself tat one question which has been on my mind for the past 3mths or so.. = oh well, mayb its fate. hav to continue waiting n see how things turn out.. mayb one day, i shall be able to see a clearer picture? hmmm... thanx weicheng, craig, sam, kyrin, sara, deb.. quite afew times, we've been discussing abt it.. sigh.

oh, n have been watching quite afew DVDs tis few wks.. paying visits to the dvd shop to rent almost every wk! haha.. recently got hold of a new series on dvd called "The Unit" .. gonna go watch soon.. hope its nice! =) better be.. hahahaaha!

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