A week packed with events. And results were released this week. A week of anxiety and worries about how i would do this time, and whether my CAP would be pulled up this time around. Monday was Christmas eve. We enjoyed a run in the morning followed by a shower, relaxation, and then a half day off. Tuesday: Christmas. spent it at home. relaxing, cleaned up some stuffs.. Wednesday. It was back at work, as usual. By this time i was more or less readied to drop oout of the team. I have spent many days thinking about this, going through the pros and cons, each and every aspect of what i want and do not want. Having weighed the points, spoken to afew friends, both from school, and my fellow VA officers. Some of the frens whom i spoke to were genuinely ready to listen n help provide a neutral opinion, such as Raynor, Eugene Goh, Eugene Tay, Jas and Jas, Sara. Some of them provided points of view which i have not considered about, which was why i'd wanted to speak to my closer friends, and perhaps gain their 3rd-party opinions. Well, some, i thought were close friends. I could finally reach a decision, even if it was an extremely difficult decision to make. But for my own good, I guess I really do have to make it. Also caught up with Sara on wed evening, and we had a good chat abt many things happening in our lives, as well as worrying bout our results. haha.. congrats to SAra =) went to sleep with a very weary mind. Sometimes, looking forward to something is not good for u. Especially if u were really looking forward to the event, and at the last minute, a change is made. Sometimes, it makes u feel not to really want to plan anything. Or look forward to anything for that matter. Its not that u are pessimistic. Just weary. Thurs morning, while we were in camp, ready to go off for a run, the message only came thru to us that our briefing was to be conducted in 5min time. n we were still in PT kit. It was change parade then. Light later dawned on us that one among us already knew the timing, but the message just wasnt passed down to us. Was my half day leave as well, had a relatively good time with jas walking around Bugis, MArina Sq & Raffles City, and Velocity, looking for something. Haha. My legs were almost broken from all the walking. Had dinner at J8 myself before dropping off Jas at home, and headed to Jason's place for afew more hours of interaction and fun. Friday, Cohesion Day for us. We started the day with Badminton at SAFRA Tampines, followed by the Forest Adventure at Bedok Reservoir Park, Movie (I Am LEgend) at Great World City, and dinner ala buffet at River View Hotel. Had a ball of a time in the day esp playing badminton with Eugene n Sanjev, and the Forest ADventure where i had 2hrs of confidence building and overcoming of my fear of heights. Results were released this week as well. I'd finally had an improvement from my previous grade. Well, it wasnt spectacular, and with 2 modules wasnt what i'd expected, but well, the bell curve works in strange ways. I'm just glad that i have improved, and hopefully, can continue to improve. It is stressful to see the reaction of some people when they give u the shocked unbelieving expression that u are not doing as well as they are, and who verbally patronise you.