Wednesday:

Went to school to study with Weishan today.. have not seen her in ages, since the first wk of school. Had some catching up time as well as webcasting time.. Reached home, continued with some webcasts, talking, and just before i slept, had a piece of news which brightened me up :) yayy.


Today:
Heard the news just now in which one individual questioned all the whys and how-did-it-happen and all. Why was there a lapse in security? Why was it that the public wasnt told immediately? why this why that. Damn irritating.. Perhaps certain individuals could look into the situation more indepth before questioning your own country's security. It has proven to be effective and strong all these years. Just because of one incident, and this individual sounds as if he has had YEARS of experience of dealing with superb security. No doubt, there could have been a lapse somewhere, somehow. However, i hope the general public doesnt be too quick in judge the security forces in Singapore negatively.

I had intended to go to school today, but somehow, after i woke up, i didnt feel like doing so, and i stayed on at home. Spent the time webcasting n surfing online. Am super ssuupppeerrrr duper worried now again. very very very veryyyy worried.. :(
I hope nothing's wrong :(

3.24pm

stoning at 2250hrs . . . zzzz

A slowww day..

A slow slow s l o w w day in sch.. fell asleep while watching webcasts. zzzzz..

but the atmosphere in YIH study room was pretty fine. Jus need to take more concentration pills! =.=

day ended on a happy note! :)

Jus a random post,
thanx alot alot to Sara Kyrin Sam Ben for their concern all these while.. however busy they are, they'v never failed to be at my side, or jus a call/sms away. :) thanx for putting up with my bitching n complaints, and yeah, when i was down last time, for listening to me n holding me up.. Sara also.. alot of time listening to my ranting and worries, and reassuring me and all :)

s m i l e :)

Maybe i did the right thing, maybe i didnt.. In deciding to speak out straightforwardly. i reali don't know at this juncture. I glad that things are as it was still :) and hopefully, getting stronger.

Not at a fast forwarded speed of course :)

smile :)

signed off,
2345 hrs

haha here's some publicity for our Engin Camp tis yr! :)

hm, i just saw the following on Benny's blog, which also made me quite sad..
Here's the extract which Benny took :

"They say, ‘time and tide wait for no man’. How true this is. Today is New Year’s Eve already. The end of one and the beginning of another. It hurts to realize that this New Year will begin without you.

I caught ma sobbing quietly in your room just now. She misses you a lot. She is as heart broken as every mother can be when faced with the death of a child. I did not disturb her because I know she was basking in the memories that she has of you and the moments that you both shared.

I had imagined her recalling the day when she gave birth to you……recalling your first steps……your first words…..your first day in school and all the little things that you had done for her. The pain in the room was overwhelming. I don’t know what to do or say to her. I reckon she has to come to terms with your departure on her own. Only then can she find peace with this harsh reality. I left her to grief alone in your room.

...

There is a particular thing that was bothering me for sometime. I remembered that day when you were leaving, you called me from the airport asking me whether I wanted any cologne from DFS. I had hastily blurted out a few trying to get off the line and back to work. Little did I realize that would be the last time I will ever hear your voice again…..I remembered vividly how the conversation had gone.

(Xiang): Harlow……eh Ghor, I am at the airport, you wan to buy any perfume from DFS anot?

(Me): Erm…..…ok! You help me buy XXX and XXX……you got enough money a not??

(Xiang): Got.

(Me): ok.

(Xiang): Eh izzit better to buy on the way back?

(Me): Err...…..dun noe leh….I think so lah! (impatient)

(Xiang): Ok lor, I’ll call you again when I am back.

(Me): Ok Bye!

(Xiang): Bye!

That was it. That was the last conversation. It was brief…..too brief.

I feel sorry I din even take a minute off to ask you to be careful and to take care…..I was myopic …..I can’t see beyond myself sometimes. It had dawn on me that I was too engrossed in my own world to appreciate the people around me - the people dearest to a person. Most of the time I had taken you for granted. I was not aware of what was going on in your life. How you were doing in school? Are you dating anyone? What are your plans when you graduate? I wished I had made an effort to get to know you...…Its too late, I had squandered the time away...…can never make up for it again. Somehow my shoulders feel heavy with the burden of regret.

I guess we have to pick ourselves up from here. Tomorrow is a new start for us – a new year. We will try to live life as you had mastered so meaningfully. We will treasure the memories of you and the people/things you left behind. You don’t have to worry about pa and ma because I’ll be around to take care of things. We want you to rest. Save a good spot for us in heaven. We will join you soon. Till we meet again… its goodbye for now.

Take care my brother.

Brothers Forever"

hm, it's reali sad seeing this.. And yeah, as Benny said, if i nvr say it out, at least i'v penned it down.. I love u Mum Dad & sis! & of course my great best friends, and yeah, one more person. Though i'v never said those 3 words before to u.. I shld really stop worrying for nothing.. shucks. nerves are too jumpy ler ..

Chill chill c h i l l . . .

another yr older

hm, i've jus turned 24 2days ago.. thanx to my frens who made it reali enjoyable for me! Thanx to Berlin who wished me first, and during in the day, other frens also wished me. Got a farney keychain from Sara & Kenneth, which.. well, its gonna make me think even more :P with the names flipped and reading differently.. thanx to Sara Kenneth Marcus JasminSeow, and most importantly not forgetting Sam Kyrin Mel Lucas Liping Jian Calvin Craig who also celebrated with me at The Glass House! =) it was reali reali enjoyable, and yes.. getting a preview of my turn next to stand on the chair in front of the whole crowd is quite scary actuali.. haha, sorriee.. i had to try to get u to come :P

Friday was a pretty relaxing day, with onli a 1hr lect from 9-10am..
and yes, it was great getting to see ya once again after 4 days .. though it was late, i didnt mind.. not at all.. :)

when u are crazy bout someone, the world just revolves around the same few things from then on . . . :) I've never been happier :) I hope my intepretation is correct, and I hope things will move on to be even better..

Reflections

haha.. reflections on tis day when i turn 24.. hmms . many many things im thinking thru, and would like to say too.. haha.

thanx for the sms at exactly 12am :) its not early. its exactly at 12am today :) haha!

-1130hrs-

i need to learn to control, control, control..

c o n t r o l ..

:)

balance

Mid Term breakk is coming soon. 1wk == 7days, but doesnt mean its alot.. not forgetting i have lots to catch up on.

Feedback Controls : 2 x tutorials + webcasts!
Fluid Mechanics II: 4 x tutorials
ME2101 Design : 1 x tutorial starting tis wk
Mech of materials : 2 x tutorials + 1x webcast from CNY
Physics IIE : 2 x tutorials
HEavenly Maths : 1 x tutorial + webcasts!

and of course, PhysicsII and Feedback Midterm tests both on 5 March =X

sheesh.. my turn to say tis ler.. i need to balance balance b a l a n c e.



ahaha.. yeaa. i copied the picture. lols! :)

time seems to past sOO fast! =X

"I Just Called To Say I Love You"



No New Year's Day to celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here's just another ordinary day

No April rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding Saturday within the month of June
But what it is, is something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer's high
No warm July
No harvest moon to light one tender August night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
Not even time for birds to fly to southern skies

No Libra sun
No Halloween
No giving thanks to all the Christmas joy you bring
But what it is, though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
of my heart

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care, I do
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart, of my heart,
baby of my heart


:)

Saw this video of the SAF Band in action.. though the picture is abit lagging about 1 count from the music itself.. hm, reminds me of my band days. sometimes i do wish i was back in the Band once again.. hmm :)for those who'd been thru the commissioning parade, perhaps the first song would bring back some memories for u! :)

:)

Had a super nice Monday, reali reali enjoyed myself.. It then led me to a long thinking time while on the drive back home, which then led me to my decision :) THANKS Raynor! for taking the time to help me settle the picture which i needed to help to change to black-and-white urgently, all because i lacked the skills and software to do so myself, and even though I headed to the engin PC cluster to checkout the computers to see if they had photoshop installed, they didnt.. Thanx for the help despite the superly duperly duperlyy shooorrrttt notice.. I really do appreciate it alot alot.. Thanx lots bro! :)

It was a heart-thumping-cum-popping out time on tuesday night :) haha.. nearly had a "heart attack".. but im so glad it went fine :) thanku :)

Wednesday, well, a loonngg day.. shagged out, totally. but was like wide awake at 11pm+ :p which is actuali more like sleeping time! zzzz . haha

Thursday: H a p p y V a l e n t i n e s ' D a y ! :) :)

There are many things that i wan to say, and would love to do :) But i'm scared that i will somehow be held back by fears and worries, and then inadvertently screw things up without knowing.. I hope that what i'm doing, and have been doing, is right :) I reali hope so..

Perhaps its cos of things that have happened in the past -- flashbacks. Not the fear of getting into something, but rather, worries of doing something wrong, sth which might turn the tables upside down instead, and cause the curtains to come down..

But i just wanna say this with all my heart:

I want to, and will, do my best for tis all :)

*ponders

How do u tell someone how u reali really feel about the person? Now that all these while, your focus has just been on her, and u just wan to do everything for her, but yet, u're afraid of accidentally pulling the curtains down on everything. Dilemna..

I care. I really do.. :)

haha.. an exciting saturday. Woke up and was on my toes at home from 8 9+.. prep for afew friends coming over to my place for a small gathering. Its the first time im playing host, so was kinda nervous. haha.. Sam also reminded me to DO my tutorials n stuffs! haha.. yeah, i shld. sigh.. with the proj deadlines approaching. grrr.. tat lasted til bout almost 3pm.. After that, went over to Daniel's house for a gathering with the fellow VA officers. hahaha.. was damn fun there with the rest of the guys :)

Came home for dinner with my family. Been online since 8.45pm.

well, searching for ideas :)

It's Saturday! :) So fast, 3 days have passed.. lol :)

sloww friday

River Hongbao was nice.. though very very crowded.
And i missed the fireworks.. bleahz.





thought i lost my thumbdrive,
but the blur toot in me actually forgot to remove it from my pants i wore to sch on monday, so my thumbdrive went swimming.. thanx goodness it still seems fine and undamaged..
(2250hrs)

A slow friday.

Feels so slack, and i dont wanna do anything else but slack.
but looking at the amount of work i have to get done,

plus some non-school-related job to do too :)

I shouldnt slack.
not too much anyways..
(1417hrs)


Its Friday already :)

C N Y !!

Happy New Year to one and all! =) 新年快乐！！ =)

haha so fast.. day 1 already. hmm.. the start of a looonnng wkend.. well, actuali it started yesterday. hehe. but not forgetting all the tutorials and webcasts that i hav to catch up! ..

I had a great tuesday evening.. I really reallly had an enjoyable time :)

2 more days and counting :)
i'm missing the times already .

Lazy weekend/sunday

A lazy weekend. Slept late on friday night =P

Saturday: woke early, and was at the east side for a moment =P wouldnt say tat it was a wasted trip, though it more or less became a round trip =p haha.before i ended up in sch to get Sara and head to West Mall to discuss our design proj with Craig as well. Sara wasnt feeling well, so since it was all in the west anyways, decided it was alright to get sara before headed to West Mall. Kenneth! (if u r reading tis, u better appreciate it.. hehe). ur gf's my good fren! lol. Spent the afternn at home after we were done. Prep some stuffs for cny. Own family reunion dinner at home =)
Slept very late again, cos i was online =P

Today, woke late! at 10.30am! cant believe myself.. went out for brunch and some shopping at thomson ntuc for drinks n stuffs for cny. If not my frens will have to self supply water.. hehe. Spent a whole afternn and evening trying to figure out this lab report called Frequency Response. grrr.. its not responding to my frustrations with it definitely. heh. & of course, online again =) So the time was pretty well-spent and enjoyable.

haha..saw this on Berlin's blog and tried it out. Pretty truee for me i think . lol.. always felt that quality time together will be the most important of all. Doesnt have to be for a long time like hours. As long as keeping in touch, and spending quality time. Re-attaching one of my favourite stories again. Its called "A Great Reminder".

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Quality Time

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	12
Acts of Service:	8
Physical Touch:	7
Words of Affirmation:	2
Receiving Gifts:	1

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A Great Reminder -

A philosophy professor stood before his class. He had some items on the table in front of him. When class began, he picked up a large empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks about 2" in diameter.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. Then the professor picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the rocks. He then asked the students if the jar was full. Again they agreed that it was. When the professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar the students laughed. The sand, of course, filled in everything else.

When pouring everything out and reversing the order of filling the jar by putting the sand into the jar first, there was no room for all the pebbles and rocks, even when shaking the jar.

"Now," said the professor, holding up the jar, "I want you to recognize that this is your life. The rocks are the important things in your life, your family, your partner, your health, your children - anything that is so important to you that, if it were lost, you would be nearly destroyed. The pebbles are the other things in your life that matter, your job, your house, your car. The sand is just that... the small stuff. The order of filling the jar applies the same way to your life. If you spend all your energy and time on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. So pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Be with your family.... play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out on a date..... dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party and fix the disposal. Take care of the rocks first.... the things that really matter.

Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."