haha here's some publicity for our Engin Camp tis yr! :)

hm, i just saw the following on Benny's blog, which also made me quite sad..
Here's the extract which Benny took :

"They say, ‘time and tide wait for no man’. How true this is. Today is New Year’s Eve already. The end of one and the beginning of another. It hurts to realize that this New Year will begin without you.

I caught ma sobbing quietly in your room just now. She misses you a lot. She is as heart broken as every mother can be when faced with the death of a child. I did not disturb her because I know she was basking in the memories that she has of you and the moments that you both shared.

I had imagined her recalling the day when she gave birth to you……recalling your first steps……your first words…..your first day in school and all the little things that you had done for her. The pain in the room was overwhelming. I don’t know what to do or say to her. I reckon she has to come to terms with your departure on her own. Only then can she find peace with this harsh reality. I left her to grief alone in your room.

...

There is a particular thing that was bothering me for sometime. I remembered that day when you were leaving, you called me from the airport asking me whether I wanted any cologne from DFS. I had hastily blurted out a few trying to get off the line and back to work. Little did I realize that would be the last time I will ever hear your voice again…..I remembered vividly how the conversation had gone.

(Xiang): Harlow……eh Ghor, I am at the airport, you wan to buy any perfume from DFS anot?

(Me): Erm…..…ok! You help me buy XXX and XXX……you got enough money a not??

(Xiang): Got.

(Me): ok.

(Xiang): Eh izzit better to buy on the way back?

(Me): Err...…..dun noe leh….I think so lah! (impatient)

(Xiang): Ok lor, I’ll call you again when I am back.

(Me): Ok Bye!

(Xiang): Bye!

That was it. That was the last conversation. It was brief…..too brief.

I feel sorry I din even take a minute off to ask you to be careful and to take care…..I was myopic …..I can’t see beyond myself sometimes. It had dawn on me that I was too engrossed in my own world to appreciate the people around me - the people dearest to a person. Most of the time I had taken you for granted. I was not aware of what was going on in your life. How you were doing in school? Are you dating anyone? What are your plans when you graduate? I wished I had made an effort to get to know you...…Its too late, I had squandered the time away...…can never make up for it again. Somehow my shoulders feel heavy with the burden of regret.

I guess we have to pick ourselves up from here. Tomorrow is a new start for us – a new year. We will try to live life as you had mastered so meaningfully. We will treasure the memories of you and the people/things you left behind. You don’t have to worry about pa and ma because I’ll be around to take care of things. We want you to rest. Save a good spot for us in heaven. We will join you soon. Till we meet again… its goodbye for now.

Take care my brother.

Brothers Forever"

hm, it's reali sad seeing this.. And yeah, as Benny said, if i nvr say it out, at least i'v penned it down.. I love u Mum Dad & sis! & of course my great best friends, and yeah, one more person. Though i'v never said those 3 words before to u.. I shld really stop worrying for nothing.. shucks. nerves are too jumpy ler ..

Chill chill c h i l l . . .