updates: CAA 091108

okay.. been another long time since i last touched tis blogg..

Many days have passed, but I havent been studying much. Why?
Projects. 2 of them.. HR2002 and ME3101 Design Project.

Not that i'd complain much, since projects can be quite fun, if everything goes smoothly, and everything is managed efficiently. I just feel v sian that sometimes when u talk, people dont listen. It's like the ideas u suggest dont make a difference, and I'm just one stupid silly person. Then moments later, what u had been trying to put forth, is put forth. I dont mind people doing things together.. It can actually be quite efficient at times, since ideas are put forth together, and then solved together. But that's if there are alot of discussions -- productive ones -- which help to speed up the process of doing work..

Sometimes, I just feel that it's better to think about it individually first, then get together to discuss and put the pieces together, instead of sitting there for hours and each doing each individual parts, with no need for discussions, or sitting there and brainstorming for ideas right from scratch..

From doing tis projects, I really learnt alot.. alot about myself, about others, about my friends. I learnt how to handle different situations, especially frustrating moments where I just feel like letting off the steam and tell people off.. or moments where I just want to interrupt the whole world and just ask to be listened to for that few seconds.. or moments when I just feel so stupid, when something seem clear to others, but to me, it was nonsensical and mind-boggling....

The design project ate up my time the most..So much time spent on various parts of it, either doing new parts or fine-tuning existing parts, or worse-case, redoing them cos of errors I made.. Well, I didnt want to screw anything up. Not when I already have 2 members whom I dont know how to describe their level of initiativeness and responsibility and efficiency.

The presentation is supposed to be tomorrow 10 Nov.. However, last Monday evening, our prof informed us that the examiner cannot make it, and so we had to push it forward to last Friday, 7th Nov. It came as a stunner, and it started a week of sleepless-ness and frustrations and rushings..

Tuesday, we spent a full 8+hrs (from 10+ tp 6+) in the TH Boardroom working on the report and slides simultaneously. And at times, the air of tension built up.. But certain individuals deserved it.

Definitely.

I myself had swallowed down my disgust and anger countless times.

Wednesday came, initially for one round of initial rehearsals, but it became a session of 'slides corrections'.

[It seems like overnight, brain cells reworked again, and the preliminary slides which were 'approved' the day before to be suitable, suddenly became too draggy overnight. I didnt know slides when left alone overnight can grow to become more draggy after one night of hibernation.

Imagine u spent hours working on something the day before, and after showing it to be looked thru by a 2nd and 3rd party, it's approved to be suitable.. Then the very next day, people come and tell u that after looking at the first few slides, they want to fall asleep. And it's too long and wordy and all.. A totally different reaction from the day before. Then suddenly in front of everyone, I'm so damn silly and stupid and inefficient cos I dont know how to summarise slides and make them non-boring.]

Well, the presentation is over.. *sweat* After a heartstopping session of grilling, especially since I was one of the 2 presenters, it was over.
And I must say, I'm damn proud of our report..

Well, now it's time to start studying, finallyyyy.....
It's week 13, and my first paper is on 20th Nov. Tmr is 10th Nov.. sighs.
Well, I'l have to work hard from now on and not slackk too much.. In order to ensure that everything goes smoothly.. hopefully.

Happy 5 months Dear =)