Many a times these days go past without me wondering. Words cant describe how much of a "sian-ness" -- a downed feeling -- i feel now, been feeling for the past few days. Yes, it might seem to be a small incident to some, since i wasnt there. But that surprise and shock, how much i thought about it since. How i wished i was there. Perhaps things would have been different. Maybe i could have done something to look out, and it would have been averted. Alot of maybes. All because i fell sick and i couldnt make it. Many things, i want to ask more about, to say more, but i dont dare to. I am afraid that i might ask or say something wrong. Or something that might trigger off something else. So i don't know what else i can or should do. Except keep quiet. And being very careful abt wat i say or do.

All i can do now, and am doing, is pray. That everything is alright now. That your confidence has returned, slowly but returning. That you will recover soon. And your cheer will return to as it was before. The laugh, the jestering, the "kah-jiao-ing". Everything. There's only one way i can help u when school starts. And I hope u will allow me to. Its the least I can do.. Even if its simply just as a fren, a 'neighbour'. =)

I know that sometimes, i really am bad at showing my concern and thoughts.
But I care. I really do.